but trying to stop myself b/c a. money and b. i need to try to be better at not wantingt o leave my apt b/c of 'things take energy'

you might be able to take a bottle of water with you from what I remember of volunteering at events here

yeah i should, b/c even when i was working the winter in the gardens, they were pretty good about letting us have water/getting warm/sitting and stuff

more than other places tho thats a low bar

part of it is my anxiety and like 'brain doesnt know too much about setting up for this event so it is in Anixety mode'

but like i tell myself that i thought that before i did the garden event and it turned out actually pretty ok

yeah you'll be OK

lol i did get the details email and the guy supervising seems pretty cool, i mostly have to just be like 'going outside is okay even if Sweat exists'

it looks like it will be pretty nice outside from what i can tell though

and i dont have to get up quite as early it seems

that's good

oh! also inside the stadium, thats fine. tho its not too bad to work outside tomorrow. and they did answer some of my questions about 'where do i eat' i just hope ill be able to find something and not like die of 'i forgot to eat'