are u good

yah im good a bit stressed

i feel myself getting sick from the stress u know how i am

you wanna talk about it or nah

but my friends r helping me

that's good 💞

i think im good actually? i did see him chat shit but im good honestly i dont need some1 who does that in my life lolsies but i mainly did it for exams

it's late though for you rn make sure to get some sleep

i will soon

promise?

but i completely lost feelings when i realised that he didnt care that much if it took him 3 months to take a quick research abt my disorder

pinky promise!

but whatever its fine im going on dating hiatus until college most likely

harry is helping me mostly bless him

yea, that's fair. it's a process though and if you need to talk about it then i'm always here for you. but you're not gonna do yourself any favors by missing out on sleep, so please go to sleep within the next hour or so

i have hello kitty ramen to make myself feel a bit better

he's a dick but you shouldn't jeapordize your health worrying about him. wait till morning for that shit at least

even though i dont love him like a lover i do still love him and i miss him

can't make you, but i'm asking.

i will go to sleep in the next 20 min

thank you

i think i miss the memories mostly though like the way we stared at each other like we really were with each other and my heart got all fluttery

luh you man i'm here for you always

luh you so much bro

i can't make myself be in love with someone though even if i do love them

luh you so much too

EURGHHH when will i feel not guilty

i spent a week lying to him and myself that i still loved him like he deserves to be loved

whatever maybe in another life

hey man there'll be plenty of time for you to fall in love with someone who does deserve it

doesn't gotta be in another life you've got a lot of this one

he deserves more than me i think im just too mentally ill for relationships i think

ain't the end of the world. people come and go, and i'm just glad that mf went fast

yeah i guess

it still sucks because like i donf know

don't i guess me it's true. i'm gonna beat you up

i might just block him

for both of our sakes

so i dont go back to him and he doesnt go back to me because i dont like him like he deserves

buddy he didn't research about your personality disorder when you were quite literally dating and planning a future together

you can block him if you want to. do what's best for you

URRGHH im gonna die i miss him

all my trust just disappeared i guess in that moment

even if it was just researching symptoms or triggers

he learned my mother tongue for me yet he didnt learn about the single thing that ultimately controls my life

oh some of your replies are only loading in now

ya. but you deserve to love and be loved, and it's gonna sting for awhile, but i promise you'll be able to move forward. you did with fucker 1 and you'll be able to do it with fucker 2

he's gonna be a passing, laughable thought eventually and i hope that's comforting for you

it stings a lot right now

the thought he hates me really fucking stings doesnt it

yeah im gonna block him theres no point in me crying over it im just gnna delete every picture

ERUGHH im gonna change my lockscreen

i deleted the my love app that hurt LOL

you can cry that's fine man

again. it's a strenuous process. you're not alone & im here for you, so don't hold anything back because it's only gonna bite you in the ass later

i feel like i dont deserve to cry imo

ykwim?

like i put this shit on myself

thats a human reaction, not something that can be taken away because you don't or do "deserve it"

if you're hurting, you might cry. that just happens

i just watched the tiktoks he sent me before blocking him im gonna KMSSSS

sending you tissues

i blocked him on everything

how do you feel

theres no lifted weight

i just feel sad

overbearing sadness

it'll get more bearable. little by little

your friends will bear it with you too