sorry about being such a sadsack lately apparently it was just that my uterus is trying to kill me! lol!

vitriol organ VIOLENTLY rejected food earlier today in complete defiance of painkillers and I have just spent most of the rest of the day unconscious as God intended. still feel like garbage, drank something because I don't want to risk anything solid again yet. fuck this. fuck me

should have known better than to eat real food since my body will throw a hissy fit if I so much as drink water on day 1 but sometimes if I time the painkillers right I can almost go about the day like normal so I didn't think about it. reminder to self to not eat next time I wake up bleeding I guess

[finally starting to feel conscious again] [it's midnight] lol