I got in my own way a little but mostly my momentum got tanked for reasons out of anyone's control and I don't think it's going to come back. I was right in the beginning to think I was just in the wrong frame of mind to rp rn also
but it's also good to rip the bandaid off now I think before I actually get situated and become important to anyone. like this no one is really losing anything
I got really excited about my ocs and turned to rp bc rp is the best way to show off my ocs to ppl. but it turns out I did not actually want to rp again yet