she makes me confused as heck sometimes but then im like...
UHG!!!!!!!!!!
like she was telling me that i was too much a little ( in a good way, like "i need me time too" ) and then i was talking about it like, "yea! let me know when it happens" and she goes "yeah. i just Did" in a rude kinda way?
and then
i give her space and she blows up my dms with gifs and videos which is cool! i like
but then kinda jealous bc i was hanging out with my best firend??
i cant tell i just cant it doesnt work in my head
and then we were on vc with my friend. cuase like :3 yea yea! we like when we all hang out were the boobies trio
but then. I
idk u just dont itneract then
idk everytime we hangup she just HANGS up and im like aw well okay i WAS in the middle of telling you something
and she kinda gets upset about that
im trying my hardest here okay
i was so peer pressured int odrinking and i wanted to say it but i was actually scared
i only said it because i was drunk and by that time it ws too late
and i know that breaks trust but id GET IT if i did it on purpose
youre just raeally mad about that and i had no control over it
idk make it make sense to me! if u want this to keep going and me not just breaking up with you i need that
im autistic, im neurodivergent. heck! you are too! but you know that we need to talk right and?
i want that person i could trust and giggle with back
i want to feel safe talking toyou? i dont.
i dont want it to be horribly awkward in ou friend group
and u were in there first so idk
calling my friend "hawt" and saying stuff about her? im right here?
are we together? are we even a thing anymorel ike
idk its been like 4 months? almost 5?
its not that long of a time but its not. like it
everyday it seems more and more like aabetter idea
im starting not to want to try at all
i know some things are my fualt. yes.
but ive apologized and ive recognized that
we call and u ignore me, and wweve tlaked about the attention we need?
dont get that. and i give that to you? i think? idk, youre so cryptic?
u make it very obvious that ur upset. and then.
it just makes me feel like poop. it makes me feel like youre doing it on purpose
which i relaly dont think oyu would but im pretty sure you know it hurts.
ihgggjfjjjjjj
battyy this is whats going on for the most aprt
you deserve to be with someone who you genuinely feel safe talking to, nikki. either try to talk or break it off i think
i'm not good with this stuff 😓
its so so so hard to say smth
i feel itll probably just get turned back around on me anywyas so i just feel like waiting it out but
i know its hard but i think its better for both of you. i dont think waiting it out is a good idea it might get worse but it is your own choice and i'm here regardless whatrver you choose to do
tthank you doorian
i jjust donnt know sommetimes shes the beest bbut others shees just so unpreddictable
you dont need to thank me silly we're friends
no i get what you mean