usually start the day with one of my chill Pandora artist stations, like Explosions in the Sky or Hozier, to help ease myself into work. anything rock tends to wait until midday.
today I was already wide awake from waking up several times during the night and loud morning news was upstairs, so it was female-vocalist metal at 7am lol
today I was already wide awake from waking up several times during the night and loud morning news was upstairs, so it was female-vocalist metal at 7am lol
expecting work to be crazy busy yet again and debating working thru lunch. we don't have our OT hours yet otherwise I wouldn't worry about it
but I hate feeling behind. and it's honestly just amplified because I'm behind with both work and RP so devil on my shoulder is berating
(oooh Explosions in the Sky is an excellent morning choice. I'm going to have to try that.)
loooove being slammed, working through my lunch and our benefits meeting to try and get more shit done, and some impatient sales rep emails the group inbox management runs so I'm forced to stop what I'm doing to address it and politely remind the sales dude it's busy season and I'm actually still well within our 'advertised' window
/flops
what a fucking day
I hate busy season and especially peak weeks and especially when we don't have OT hours to use yet
this is the first day in a while that it felt like back at my old company with how swamped I was and working through lunch
but at least singing along to some tunes in my headphones helped burn out my frustrations though now I'm just tired
gonna try to clear the ol' brain and scrape together enough energy to touch RP later damnit
some day life will stop being so exhausting, right? surely? -.-
so over things. and not having stability. and the stressful things sucking up so much of my overall bandwidth that I end up with the desire to do the Fun Things but not the capability
and staring at words and an empty text box for over an hour is not a recipe for getting in a better mood, sadly
idk how teenage!me had the energy to channel all the stress and shit into pages and pages of writing on a constant basis. current!me is just tired
