我無特別去記佢生日，我以前仲記錯日子係Cardiff個中式酒樓度打佢荷包睇ID，係之前既自己太好手尾入咗落電話，又有佢去日本時msg我，我先留意到佢既生日，同我會在意

前前後後同幾個frd提過，自己都靈魂拷問過，我係想送，唔係為咗佢，係為咗我自己

決定咗送就到送咩同幾時送，我決定用唔好諗太多大法，同聽朋友C既提案，買簡單既野就好，所以我係巴黎臨走前買咗塊開心果味既切餅，無咩特別，又平（3.5歐）
點都無理由送404既切餅先XD

IG事IG了，問佢收唔收，佢話收，問我仲係咪係個頭返工，我答係，佢無下文，我就話一係我開工前一係就我收工後，唔覆就當唔要，佢話係個間starbuck見，時間上佢係早到既，我多少有啲緊張，都早咗少少出門

咁岩有車，我都早到咗，上到去佢已經係度，我全副武裝又headphone又口罩，放底個餅，其實打算講兩句就走，結果佢講講下，五分鐘前先走

都係講下佢去日本啲野，佢有問下我巴黎，我講咗少少咁，我有意識唔好講太多，費事啦

心情上比想像中好，無咁大起大落，然而我還是痛恨自己點解咁鐘意望佢，身體語言我有注意唔好太向佢，都係個句，費事啦

佢俾咗包靜岡抹茶同久能山東照宮既御守俾我，我當然知道佢只係隨手係買既野度拎啲野俾我，當係送餅既回禮，係我無expect過咁解

巡例叫佢試下個餅啦，佢咬咗啖話好食，跟住隊埋嚟叫我試下，同餵有咩分別/_\ 然而我咬咗啖細既，的確幾好，果然巴黎甜品點都好

差不多要走時我諗住就咁走，點知佢俾咗個hug我
一個當時我等咗一個月既hug
我無回hug，我唔係好記得自己講咗咩，大概係「你宜家就識hug我」咁樣
再講多兩句我細路個面就俾佢引咗出嚟，係佢又hug我時我用力地想箍爆佢，佢無放手我就pitch到佢放手
Acted as if we were still like before.
He said, "I thought you didn't want to talk to me anymore".
I said, "That was you. You disappeared for 2 months".

大家同方向，佢送我到公司門口
I hate it with my life. How beautiful his eyes were when sunshine fell on his face.
I said it before for his photo in Cardiff. I will say it again. I hate it.
I never imagined light brown was such a powerful colour.

之後工作都好順，心情無好大上落，多少都有subpress自己既，但預想中既壞情況並沒有出現
今日都無咩野，都係例牌旅行完個種懶，心情都ok既

之後會點我唔知，只能說咁樣見到面，個個relief比想像中還要relieved

靈魂拷問自己時，我好咬牙切齒地好想知道，點解嚟個人，嚟個關卡我咁跨唔過去，到底個題目係咩野，我想面對佢，想破解咗佢
總不能俾佢一直live rent free in my brain

今日我有特登開返Cardiff張相出嚟，張相even those videos既威力係減少咗好多，只係實物對我既威力還是那麼強