remember when i said i was gonna take it easy this month? [wheezing man gif]

that's my secret i don't know if i'm capable of taking things easy!!!!!

that being said my tagging speed has been a lot slower compared to last month but i wanted to catch up on media anyway (more on this later) so i think it's fine as long as i slowly get back to responding on the tags i owe...i do feel guilty especially when i rp with a lot of fast taggers but i really should stop beating myself up over it

me and "oh god i must write longer to give more context"

on the positives though i think this is the month where i started being more active with psls/memes and it's actually been pretty fun! sometimes you just want something quick and easy and the format is perfect for that. psls with very specific scenarios that i wanna do to is nice because i am full of ideas all the time

i think from here on out i'll try to balance both psl tags and game tags equally, as game tags have been my priority to the point where i take forever to respond to some psls

i feel like january is gonna be a real test for me if i'm gonna be able to juggle three (soon four) characters at the same time...on one hand i do feel like i might have to drop someone but at the same time it's not like i have ran out of muse for anybody? so it's a hard choice to make.

but if we can live life on the edge and meet ac comfortably for all of my characters i don't see why not. All of my characters have solid in-progress CRs so it's not like I'm lacking in things to tag about.

Gonna be in here with Strohl by January, if the gods are willing! I'm excited. I don't think it's a surprise to anybody that I have been hyperfixating hard on Metaphor since I beat it which. honestly feels nice in a way? it's been a long while since i felt like this, even though it is detrimental to my productivity elsewhere

also ngl by picking up strohl i have determined that i am actually capable of writing any kind of character so long as i could put him under a microscope. i really didn't expect this turn of events at all. either way i do want to be in another game because of one of my rp wishes which are....

a) expand my horizons. i love expi and i have truly gotten my rp drive back there but i think it would be good for me to meet other people as well. see what's out there. like already i thought that 15 comments for ac is the norm and i've recently been hearing that this isn't the case at all.

but yeah i've been feeling sociable so i would love to make new friends and bounce ideas off with different people.

b) open nav portal comms. not rp but rp adjacent, i would want to expand the types of comms i can do next year. more money wouldn't hurt, especially with how the economy is. i just wanna finish the one i'm making for starkuno and then i can set things up

c) rp smut. lmaaaaaao. vi gave me a nice primer on how to write sex scenes so i wanna put it into practice somewhere. it would be a great exercise too, considering that it's an aspect of rp i don't really touch upon that often. (you can tell i'm ace with how clinical i am approaching this)

that's about it for now i think. i do have some character specifics plans/wishes (especially for strohl. you know me and my character arcs) but i'm just taking things as they go for now.

i do have to say i'm very happy that i got a good chunk of a character arc with ryoji on the half month i got to rp as him! his development isn't over yet, and i already have ideas on how to proceed with it, but being able to design the november player plot (alongside the build up that led to it) has been a dream come true for me.

as for a yearwide sotrp...i feel like it's been a mixed bag? some months i'm happy with my rp, other months i feel like i am the worst

ace handshake.. my advice is to not overthink smut threads too much and focus as much, if not more on the emotional/mental experience as the, uh. mechanical aspects

the mood just comes and goes i guess, the important part is surviving the lows i am going to assume

moonsilver: yes ty! looking back at the smut threads i have done i do lose steam faster if i just focus too much on the mechanics/physical aspects of it. i do like smut that has some kind of emotional drive or purpose behind it, so that's something for me to take notes on

also i'm shit at descriptive prose anyway so lol

yeah like honestly if there's no real emotional or character development aspect to it you can handwave/ftb, its waaay more engaging if theres a purpose

don't worry about the smut being too realistic either!! just have fun with it

I'm not ace but I still write like unrealistic smut. it's super fun tbh if you just let loose!!

live your best nasty hentai physics life (if thats what youre into)

LOL yeah no most of the smut i have done so far is unrealistic. some of my tastes are surprisingly not vanilla

BRO SAME

All I have to say is you are your own worst critic...

it really is have you seen the number of times i beat myself up for not performing perfectly unprompted

Yes.

tbh smut without emotional/mental aspect is Boring

it's the same with fight scenes for me (that one i have more experience with) it's like....what's the point

oh I guess a more specific wish is for ryoji's next dev to have him be more comfortable in being thanatos more often. because everyone loves the hot monster he just doesn't know it yet

gosh, when the dressing rooms were still around, a lot of people explored that

i miss it so much

it's such a good idea to explore too.

dressing rooms....now that's a word I haven't heard a lot of before

* haven't heard in a while I really shouldn't be texting right as I wake up

reaches for i've been here since I was 15............ help

my secret is that I used to be in ljrp! was around during the dw exodus even

same

i'm actually surprised we haven't run into each other

or maybe we have lol

but I took a break long enough that I might as well be baby again and now I've been rping again since june

he still treats his side as death is dangerous - and well, it is, but it's not as out of control as he thinks it is. strong yes, but a lot of people can handle that