JaniceNW
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feeling slightly discouraged. 
Oh, no! What's gone amiss?
class average 94.5, my average 91
for nursing fundamentals
I have 100 in pharm
everyone is smarter than me (sound of ego breaking)
That is not realy that big a difference. I don't know the dynamics.
class average means they're all doing better in the damn tests
in that class, I'm rocking in pharm
You're not being graded down for attitude?
But someof these people are dumb.....how dare they beat my grades.
nope straight grading on tests
I'm being bitter for 10 minutes 
< smile >
KD that talk I got last week?
Yes?
my pharm teacher knew nothing about it
You're kidding!
I was told person talking to me represented ALL staff
apparently I've been partially black listed 
Well, obvious not the *new* staff, Janice!
It does have that sound to it... 
my grades next qrt will depend 85% on the teacher who likes me........yeahhhhhhhhh
I'm wtching my back now
I'm tough, I can take it
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR 
looking fierce
looking fierce
actually fundamentals lasts all year...but thanks
I still have 6 weeks in the quarter
You're apparently going to have to...
And it help knowing for sure where all the cards are.
4 weeks off in December!YEEHAW!
The cards are marked
I am way happy for you!
Yes, apparently they are!
I still have all A's, they have no excuse to ditch me
My class thinks I'm a druggie cuz I know so much
snicker
it's harder going to school in middle age
(No one tell class I'm a dealer....) shhhhhhhhhh
I am very sure it is! I really think that what you are doing is very impressive.
my friend who's 53 has highest test grades in class
That's very cool, too!
You have a lot besides school on your plate!
you'd be surprised at how many home growing pot houses there are around here
No, actually, I wouldn't. 
17yo has homecoming this weekend only costing us 300 bucks
plus he's getting a car cuz he finished driver'd ed!YEAHHHHHHHH
it's gonna be an over 6 grand weekend
ka-ching
I recall doing exactly that. My daughter was homecoming queen, right after I bougt her a $3000 flute and a $5500 pickup.
oh jeez congrats ont he queen! the money sucking never seems to end
my son got moved to leadership away from psycho teacher
now I just need to convince him ITT is not an accredited college
he thinks I'm being a college snob
Not hardly! He'll get it, I hope...
my spouse isn't helpful
he's a very bright boy, too bright for ITT
What's you husband's educational background?
city college
in other words nothing
he's telling the kid one of his friends did ITT and made out well
I feel like ripping my hair out
kid wants to do IT, I'm like get a BS
I did not use my university degree for much. But I'm glad I got it and very glad for the experience.
he'd start at a CC
we have awesome CC programs
Just the discipline of doing the work well is incredibly instrucive.
ITT credits don't transfer
it's blue collar thinking
my spouse does not appreciate the benefits of a higher education
which is why he's not impressed with my schholing
or supportive
but I'm not it to impress him
I know, but still...
I told him if he can't be supportive to heep his mouth closed
so far so good
he does send me very nice good morning texts when I go to early class
we're on different planes
My tude: in yo face
this is why I have internet friends, to support me
in another life I'd have a masters by age 25
< nod, nod >
I'm glad you're strong enough to deal with all of this...
no other choice. I become strong through adversity
and being proactive not reactive
There are a lot of women who should hear what you did, and how.
22 years of marriage, still complete opposites
I just did what was necessary to survive
including antidepressants
That is *so* hard. I have found that I cannot do it.
the meds make me feel dimished even tho I know that's so stupid
what os so hard
No, hell, that's just chemistry and peer pressure!
The complete opposites thing.
no peer pressure a fight for my life
aha
we'll see what happens when kids are not our main focus
That's what it comes down to, huh?
Luckily, ours is 22.
I have no plans for my marriage, I will play it by ear
I deserve to be respected and loved
my spouse is emotionally limited, that's just who he is
I, however, have quite the range of emotions, we talked and yelled in my upbringing
his family still doesn;t "talk" about unhappy things
he's fairly content, I have no idea where I'll be emotionally after getting my RN
Boy, does *that* sound familiar!
Big decisions, Janice.
are in your first marriage?
No. My third. 
don't be embarrassed
I'm spouse's second
his first lasted 3 months before she walked
are you happy as in 3rd time's a charm
My first was at 19. That was ill-fated. The second one died in 1980.
Thing
says
I was single for almost 20 years.
I am so sorry for your loss
dang I was 18 in 1980 
It is far in the past, but thanks, guys.
that's a long time to be single
it was still a major life changing loss
LOL!
I probably should have stayed single.
seriously?
your daughter was born in 1980, single dad?
No, it's my stepdaughter.
We dropped the "step" a long while back.
that's awesome. I like that, shows what kind of guy you are
Shows what kind of a kid she is, more likely.
Both 
if we had been able to adopt I would have loved those kids the same as my biokids
Amanda is just an incredible kid. I was very lucky.
love isn't bio select
I like happy stories
if my spouse was different, I would have done foster care/adopting
I love bing a mom
esp. before teenage years LOL
No , it is not bio-select at all.
Being a dad is the absolute best.
I can't understand dads who won't even pay child support let alone be a real parent
I probably over parented, they were my life
I think that a lot of guys just don't ever make the connection. That has always seemed alien to me.
And I know it's common. I know a *lot* of single moms.
so sad
Part of it I think is a brain wiring thing...
Worse than just sad.
actually I think it is a societal thing and men being told to not cry, not feel ,not commit
but yes part of it is very biological and hormonal
Daddy bloggers are soem of the coolest people on the internet
Gen X & Y are changing the "wiring"
epigentic theory
some things are coded, some are learned
gee can ya tell I took tons of psych?????
I thing your right about gens X and Y.
I can. I took some and have read a lot more.
I have observed many of the X's and Y's the men are much more nurturing in general
I'm an epigenticicist and cognitive as well
My daughter's boyfriend / near fiancee is going to make a great dad.
some humanistic, hate Freud, Jung, psychotherapy
isn't that terrific?
my kids will be different from their dad
It's a great thing to see, Janice. Amanda will be a great mom, and Zach is a good match.
I taught them differently
I'm very much in the same place you are.
Boy, I hope so!
My mom did, too.
elaborate please
I have not fathered a child, which makes me sad.
it's such a miracle to create a life
I think it's the most important things I'd ever done
We seem to have close to the same philosophical view on a lot of subjects, including this one.
friends. soul friends.
I wonder what your Briggs-meyers(sp) is?
Extroverted
intuitive
what are the other two categories
I'm an INTJ
thinker, judeg,emtal yes
I have taken several times and results change as I do
The extroverted never changes
I find that this category style, though fairly broad, is pretty accurate.
when's your birthday?
Mine has been the same for the last ten years.
I'm not huge on astrology but I am a pretty typical Pisces
spouse is Pisces but not typical
June. I'm a Cancer
he hates water, I thrive on water. Ocean, fountains, streams, rain to an extent
aha! that's it 2 water signs
pools, waterfalls, ling hot baths-water revives me
I know you love the ocean
I do. I love water, too. Rivers, the Great Lakes, mountain lakes.
Oh how could I forget Lake Ontario and Huron?
I recall baing amazed at the Great Lakes lighthouses years ago...
I love Cape Cod...
I remember thingkng they were so like the ocean
been to Nova Scotia? Cape Cod without the snobs
Eastern Canada os wonderful
Yes, I have. I loved it. I also like the norther Maine coast!
I could live in Nova Scotia the rest of my life
water, mountains, blue skies
trees
I could, too. It is somehow very mysterious...
did you know one of the best med school in world is in Nova Scotia?
Dalhousie
I did *not* know that!
dream school or McGill in Montreal
I had very big dreams as a girl
Stuff sometimes gets in the way.
I need to go research journal articles on pharm and nursing for hoework. I've enjoyed this very much as usual. Have a fab friday! 
c'est la vie
au revoir
I have too, Janice.
Have u researching.
See your soon.
Or perhaps hasta luego.