sarita
14 years ago
My biggest problem with the whole idea of journalism was with yearbook last year.
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sarita
14 years ago
I had spent so much time wanting to be a part of it and working my butt off to do things for them
sarita
14 years ago
and there were so many ungrateful people there that just shit out a story and everyone OMG LUVD IT
sarita
14 years ago
and those assholes were the ones that scored positions in the editorial staff the following year
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sarita
14 years ago
and I didn't.
sarita
14 years ago
I mean maybe I am just being butthurt and I KNOW I am not one to be cocky.
sarita
14 years ago
but I put a lot of grief into yearbook.
sarita
14 years ago
I did a lot for those people but they never cared because I was ~weird~ or something.
sarita
14 years ago
and in the end, the fucking position I applied for was taken by a FRESHMAN
sarita
14 years ago
A FUCKING FRESHMAN
sarita
14 years ago
why?
sarita
14 years ago
because she was on the good side of the TWATFACED CUNT THAT WAS PICKED FOR EDITOR
sarita
14 years ago
THAT GIRL ISN'T EVEN A SENIOR THIS YEAR
sarita
14 years ago
SHE IS A JUNIOR
sarita
14 years ago
AND SHE IS RUNNING THE YEARBOOK
sarita
14 years ago
AND IT IS ALL BECAUSE SHE FED LAST YEAR'S EDITOR'S EGO SO GODDAMN MUCH
sarita
14 years ago
THAT HE WAS CONVINCED SHE WAS A LIKABLE PERSON
sarita
14 years ago
AND WANTED TO DATE HER!!!!!!!!
sarita
14 years ago
what
sarita
14 years ago
he
sarita
14 years ago
fucking SHIT
sarita
14 years ago
nobody on the staff knew what they were doing basically, and nobody CARED
sarita
14 years ago
there were lik
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14 years ago
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sarita
14 years ago
two that genuinely did
sarita
14 years ago
but of course they got nothing either.
sarita
14 years ago
nobody got what they deserved.
sarita
14 years ago
the people that deserved the world got SHIT
sarita
14 years ago
and the people that deserved to be stepped on and savagely beaten got power
sarita
14 years ago
and if that is the way that the system of journalistic work teams is going to work
sarita
14 years ago
then I want absolutely NOTHING to do with it.
sarita
14 years ago
that is probably the most disappointing thing I have had to face, the fact that I can't do the things I love because they have nothing
sarita
14 years ago
to do with capability and talent and skill, only the amount of ass kissing that you do.
sarita
14 years ago
and I was so passionate about writing until I realized that I am never going to get anything for all the work that I put into a story
sarita
14 years ago
I think the saddest thing is that I still absolutely love it, I almost prefer writing essays and news to creative writing.
sarita
14 years ago
But I have no willpower to do so because of the crap I saw in that staff.
sarita
14 years ago
I have so much spite for those people, I feel like they ate away at my passion and I know it's my own damn fault for letting them
sarita
14 years ago
but it was such a big dream for me and now it means nothing. I don't know what to do with myself or my life anymore because that seriously
sarita
14 years ago
tested my desire to deal with such tomfuckery again, and I hate it because I KNOW that I can still do it and I still love to do it but now
sarita
14 years ago
I almost feel like everything I write will be tossed aside because of the name put to the story and pretty much nobody respects or expects
sarita
14 years ago
anything good from me, so my stories have almost zero worth. And I don't know why I feel like this and I wish I could stop restraining
sarita
14 years ago
myself like this and do what I love again.
sarita
14 years ago
it is probably the only thing that ever mattered to me so much and I hate feeling that burning love and inspiration gone from inside of me.
sarita
14 years ago
I guess I am done ranting and if you read this you are a god.
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