how am i ever going to teach this

i cry like a bitch every time there's a movie or a discussion about it, i don't know how people can ever keep it together

practice?

idk but when we watched grave of the fireflies in my japanese lit class the projectionist started crying too

like once you teach it a few times...

idk man i have studied it like every year for the past seven years and i still

lose my shit every time

it's not just you that gets torn up by stuff like this even in academics

it's just so overwhelming

today the video was a beautiful mtv production of a bunch of teenager's diaries that were read by actors and stuff

and i just started uncontrollably sobbing in the middle of class and i am still like

crying even after it's off and has been for like twenty minutes

haha but i really want to teach it i just don't know how to do it without crying

because i really want to impress on my students how horrific and overwhelming it was and how important it is to remember and

speak up against things like this but

it just destroys me

LMFAO

god when i went to europe i actually went to dachau and

i have never cried so much in my life

i was a wreck the whole day because you just go and you can like ... god i don't even know how to describe it

it's like you can feel the blood on the ground

where they lined them up to shoot them