the first few chapters -nod nod-

YAY

i have to choose something to bring with me to my first lesson tomorrow, I'M SO NERVOUS JOEY, BUT I SHOULDN'T BE

COURAGE

BRING YOUR FANFICTION OMG LOL

my fanfiction but it's technically yours omg

hahaha, i can't bring YOUR writing to my class, silly

okay, i just finished chapter 2 and it only half sucks, there are a few good bits, though obviously i'm editing the whole lot

all i really have that's edited is the first chapter, should i just bring that? :/

i'm just nervous about sharing it with anyone, let alone strangers, and telling them about my story

HOW do i explain it without feeling shy or embarrassed or like they're going to judge me?

i've been slowly sort of explaining it to people over the past few weeks, now that people know i'm writing, and always go with 'it's sort of

an epic fantasy quest, except rather than a typical romance my two male characters fall in love' but i sometimes can't even say that bit

because what if they judge me? what if they think it's stupid? what if my writing sucks and i need to fix it ALL?

Well you told me before that you should care about what other people think

So be like IT'S MY HEAD BITCHES. MY IMAGINATION. SO FUCK YALL IF YOU HTE IT

hahaha, YOU are absolutely correct - way to through my own advice back at me

and i mean, geez, way for me to judge them before i even meet them

for all i know i could be meeting my next biggest fans and supporters, or at the very least open minded people willing to help

i mean, i'm not sitting here thinking about how i'm going to put THEM down when i read and evaluate THEIR writing

and most likely they'll be just as worried about what i'll think of their stuff

also i tidied this up no idea where it's going to fit yet, but i love this scene, it's insight into his childhood and the world

235 days

i changed the name of the vegetable too

i think i need to add more and explain things a bit more clearly, but i really do like the scene where Prem has to defend himself from the

creature (Fossa) that attacks him, it needs work but it's quite good actually

i honestly didn't realise i had so much to build upon, this sucks a lot less than i thought though it does all need work

it Pan-da-re or Pan-dare

ANKARA

pan-dare

his full name is actually Elian Daiman Pandarus II

:3

....that is so sexy

can i have him steadn

but he's a stubborn, rebellious thing

OMG NO SAIM MUST LIV ON

and hates to be associated with his father

so he refuses to be called Elian

hence Daim ;P

and Pandare is close but not Pandarus, which i originally justified as being recognisable

I'M HUNGRY OMG BUT WE'RE EATING AT THIS PIZZA PLACE LATER

mmmm pizza

OMG LIKE I FORGOT IF ANKARAS ARE ALLOWED TO RUN FREE

ARE THEY ALLOWED TO RUN FREE?

ALSO THEY'RE BIG AS COWS RIGHT?

hahaha, ummm, i don't know, probably kept in like paddocks and stuff

YES

AND THEY HUM LOTS

they're like small fluffy hills

Who gets annoyed by the humming again?

no one? i don't know

ALSO, blue skin but white fur

sira hates daim's whistling

yes

AWESOME

WEEEEEEEEEEEE RIDE ON SAIM ANKARA HUMMMMMMMM

hahahahaha

ET for Saim song because yeah

the one without Kanye

ET?

E.T. by Katy Perry

....just cuz

i'm so behind with music stuff, lol -google-

but whatever floats your boat love

also i don't suggest Sira ever calls Daim 'Elian' or by his full name

NO BUT SERIOUSLY THIS IS ACTUALLY SUCH A SAIM SONG

unless it's like, Daim has SERIOUSLY fucked up

LOL YOU'RE AN ELIAN YOUR TOUCH SO FOREIGN.

LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL

even then, i don't know if he would

LOL

i think Sira will find out when they meet the Green Mor

THIS SONG TURNED INTO A BIGGER SAIM SONG

ELP

and be like 'WAIT, FUCK, ELIAN PANDARUS II? THAT'S YOU?! YOU'RE A FUCKING NOBLE ELYSIAN HEIR?!'

no idea how it'll change things yet, lol

but in my head, Elian = fancy clothes, tidy hair, clean shaven, very stiff and proper. Daim = the scruffy thief we all know and love

there's a reason he ran off after all, haha

lol, here i am sharing all this random headcanon

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

??

nothing Daim is just my baby

hahaha, okay

ugh, this all needs so much work

i like it how i start a scene, then clearly have no idea what to do with it, so it's like 'awkward dialogue' and it ends

idk i kinda liked the one you sent me

yeah, that seems to be the exception, not the rule, haha

it really goes a bit downhill from there

but i have stuff to work with at least

i think learning more about Sira and Prem slowly will improve it all

so we'll get to know them first, then bring in the new dynamic with Daim and Liadan, it should be good

WEEEEEEEEEEEE

assuming i stop being a lazy ass and actually write it - but this reading through and writing notes is what i've been meaning to do for ages

it'll help me form a better plan

YAY PLANNING

so much rewriting needs to be done D: good thing i'm going to a writing course, lol

OMG have fun!

Also Ri. In the near future, can you be my soundboard for my novel???

I don't think it's your type but I just want tosmeone to talk about it

It's gonna be short...ish

of course i will sweetheart

my type or not, i'd be happy to

ugh, i'm up to page 25 but i'm starving, lol, i'll have to read the rest of this later/tomorrow

LATER

i am excited. YOU INSPIRE ME TO CONTINUE WRITING MY FIRST NOVEL OMG YES I LOAF YEW

awwww, i'm so glad!

i need to change quite a bit of the scene with the Qillaq and Prem and Liadan transforming, but i really like the climbing up the tree

bit at the end :3

i'm still not sure if having Daim able to talk to animals is a good ability or not... and i'm thinking this time Liadan will remain herself

but Prem will accidentally lose his talisman

so many good ideas, it just needs so much polishing but that's okay, i thought it was all absolute rubbish

i'm still nervous about showing anyone, since i KNOW it needs a lot of work, but hopefully i can just show them the bits i've had time to

edit and polish up

haha, and i think i need more of a lead up into arguments/anger, some of it seems a bit spontaneous like the tiniest thing sets Sira off