he wanted me to stay at his dad's house this weekend..

the only catch is that it's 3 and a half hours away from here

i was nervous already but--i make up my mind that i wanna go and then my grandma says no

and when i told him that i couldn't go, he told me "It's alright. I figured it was coming. :/ "

he really wanted me to come with him and..;sigh- it figures when i decide not to make excuses out of nervousness that i get no anyway

i still feel bad though cause we havent been able to see each other much lately--and he's been exceptionally moody lately..

He's thinking his bipolar is kicking in again

So I know that's part of it but..;sigh.- bluh..

He'll be fine..

Ill still feel like crap, but he'll get over it

I know..he told me if I didnt wanna go I didn't have to..but I still feel bad. He's gonna be gone all weekend. ;u; at least he'll be with his dad.