how she is feeling right now. I am loosing my faith in some people in my rl who are close to me. Two people who shouldn't ever give me cause to miss trust them or worry that they will let me down have hurt me.
I know that human nature is to hurt one another and to fuck up but you never expect it from people who are as close to you as the people I am having issue with. I will be okay but I really wish I didn't know...
... what I know now. It's changed my perspective on these people and I hate it, I want to see the best in everyone but when cracks start to appear I feel lost and empty.