There. There's my introspection.

Scrib happened. That was wonderful. But then I ruined it for myself by panicking and dropping out. I'll never have that again. That's what makes me feel sick.

I very nearly had a boyfriend. That was nice. But then he stopped talking to me for some reason. I'll never have that again. That's what makes me feel sick.

No, really. The bad stuff makes me feel sick, too, but the good things make me feel worse.