just had an extensive talk with my parents about their will

and how they are changing it to reflect that if something happened to them, that my younger brother would not be living with my aunt and uncle, but instead a family friend

my grandmother's health has declined - she can't remember my mother's name and didn't recognize her, and refuses to cooperate with physical therapy

and i would be deluding myself if i didn't think that it spurred the change in my parents' wills

i just feel really really exhausted and upset right now

i guess right now i'm just going to listen to music and go sleep

and try to get to bed early

and not think about this right now