별★.
11 years ago
Plurk, I'm sorry, I really need some consoling
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별★.
11 years ago
So a while back, I posted about that guy I had a crush on and how we kissed and how magical it was and stuff like that.
별★.
11 years ago
Well, he rejected me.
별★.
11 years ago
I had the worse obsession with him, he was all that consumed my mind for all of May.
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별★.
11 years ago
I invested so much time in trying to please him, and his friends, and trying to get him to like me.. which is so juvenile.
별★.
11 years ago
I gave favors, I gave money, I gave kindness, I gave myself until finally I had nothing left to give.
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11 years ago
and he just took it all.
별★.
11 years ago
But let me tell you how this all went down:
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11 years ago
So after we had that kiss, a week later there was a school dance. The 90s Prom.
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11 years ago
I went with his friends, and we all drank together and had fun. He showed up an hour before the dance stopped.
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11 years ago
We all went back to my dorm room, and drank, and they said they were going to go out to the bars.
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11 years ago
He said he forgot his ID, so he couldn't go.
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11 years ago
so he stayed with me, my roommate, and my roommates girlfriend, and we watched movies
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11 years ago
Eventually he and I get some time alone, we hold hands, and I tell him how I feel about him.
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11 years ago
He kind of just smiles and tells me he's flattered, and he tells me he's going to blush if I keep going on.
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11 years ago
So he spends the night at my house, and leaves while I'm asleep.
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11 years ago
the next day he tells me he only sees me as a friend.
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11 years ago
and that it'd be best for us not to get attached since the year is ending and he's going back to Brazil by the end of it.
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11 years ago
Well, so finally fast forward to my last night in Savannah
별★.
11 years ago
and we all go out to a bar, his friends adore me and sneak me into a bar by convincing the lady who owns the place to let me in.
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11 years ago
we all dance, I get drunk as hell for the first time around them, and I had a really fun time.
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11 years ago
I follow him back to his place because "my roommate and his girlfriend are having sex"
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11 years ago
and he and I end up talking for 2 hours, about everything.
별★.
11 years ago
I lean in, and try to kiss him, and he pushes me away.
별★.
11 years ago
and he tells me
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11 years ago
"No, please, I don't want to have to tell you why."
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11 years ago
I have never in my life, felt so unsexy.
별★.
11 years ago
His ghost is still haunting my mind.
별★.
11 years ago
He has occupied so much space in my corners of my mind, bought up so much of it's land, and I can't seem to shake this obsession.
별★.
11 years ago
not only am I obsessed with him or at least his physical appearance
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11 years ago
but my pride and ego also hurt.
별★.
11 years ago
I can't even bring myself to properly express how I feel, I want to just cry over it and let this whole experience be over
별★.
11 years ago
but I can't, I feel as if I used up all my allotted amount of tears for him already.
Donny
11 years ago
come and let me hug you and feed you drink and watch gorgeous killers
elsa
11 years ago
Awww Morgan :-(((
elsa
11 years ago
at least you have the distance, and work starting soon will be a good distraction. TIME HEALS ALL. I wish I was home to give you a hug
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