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phatedeath: Im sure u understand

I do. And I yearn for the day when I only have one world to live in.

I really hate it when my friends here think I dont understand their culture.. I feel so alienated with them

but at the same time I feel like I can't truly understand my friends in Taiwan anymore cuz I didnt go to university with them.. its like a big part of my life is here but my root is there

so confusing.

I feel like I am part of both sides but at the same time, I am neither

phatedeath: would you say the one world is the Taiwan world? or the American world? or.. is it possible to be both?

Exactly! Feeling belong to neither side.

One world... I'm not sure Maybe just somewhere that I feel belonged to. I actually want to move to Canada, maybe. But one worlds also mean the same as her.

phatedeath: awww thats sweet.. the same as her

phatedeath: hahaha yeaaaaahhh COME to Canada!!! but what makes you thought of moving to Canada?

Canada seem to have less social problems than US!

phatedeath: that is pretty likely to be true. Ive heard US has wayyy much more serious racial problems than Canada!

phatedeath: but wait.. are Asians being discriminated in the States??

Of course! Racism, classism, homophobic, sexism... there's so many problems!!

phatedeath:

phatedeath: but I feel like even within the Asians here.. the Canadian-born Chinese dont really like the FOB Chinese either..

phatedeath: partially cuz Canadian-born Chinese ppl dont really speak/read Chinese, but also the Canadian-born ppl like the English culture much more. Some of them dont really appreciate their Chinese root

phatedeath: I always feel so confused.. and alienated somehow, when I am here with some of the Canadian-born ppl. They all know that Im from Taiwan

Of course there will be gaps. I still feel that, even tho people here are friendly, I'll never be one for them, in their eyes.

phatedeath: I feel so alienated.. I dont know where I belong to. feeling so depressed recently

phatedeath: parts of me feel like an outsider, I feel like they will always think of me as "someone from Taiwan", which is nothing wrong but in fact who I really am,

phatedeath: but thats also why I always feel like.. why am I forever different from those ppl who have known me since my first day of school here

phatedeath: cuz they what I was like before (the "fob bier" me) so I feel like they prob always have that impression no matter how much I have learned here