it's incredibly frustrating that she gets on my case and pushes me around emotionally on my last day here with dani.

i know my plans changed at the last minute, but was it really necessary to start pointing out my faults and make me feel like shit?

there's a part of me that wishes i could properly describe how easily she gets under my skin after years of practice.

it's impossible to do though without tl;dr and getting all dramatic and too personal for my tastes.

still, i hate knowing that one little phone call and less than a minute of conversation can make my mood go south so quickly.

THIS is why i am moving out. THIS is why i need this all to work in my favor, just so i can get away from being emotionally triggered all the time.

if i can get that out of the picture more often than not, then maybe i can stop being such a basketcase downer at the most random moments.

i want to enjoy life, you know? not dwell constantly on how much of a disappointment i am to my mother.

like damn, i know i'm not the daughter you asked for, but could you maybe ease up a little and stop being so fucking two-faced?

rrrrrrr RRRRRRRR okay i'm done.

THOUGH TO LEAVE THIS ON A GOOD NOTE, i had a pretty awesome last day with dani and i'm 90% packed up to go early tomorrow morning.

then i pack in the evening, move in on wednesday, and do a little more moving from thursday to friday~

i'll be back in norcal on the 6th for a certain duo's big fat gay wedding

thinking very seriously about just staying until the 12th, but we'll have to see what happens!