My period is late. Again.

I've been having issues with my cycle for almost 3 months now.

What little insurance I get from work doesn't cover squat and I can't afford to see a doctor.

IT ALL STARTED THREE MONTHS AGO

I was really late and having horrible cramps. Like, couldn't get up, had to sit down even at work they were so bad cramps.

It finally came but it was painful and really light. Then last month I was late but did a little bit of spotting for like, three days.

Now it's late again. No spotting but I have really bad abdominal pains again.

I don't know what I am going to do.

On top of that, they're cutting my hours at work.

It's a company wide thing so I'm not the only one affected but Circle K's response to Obamacare is pretty much to cut everyone down to 30 hours or less so they don't have to offer full benefits.

I was cut down to 38 about a month about and started searching halfheartedly but as of next week I'll be down to 35 and I just..

I can't live off that.

Rent for my shitty little 2-bedroom apartment is $750 alone.

That's not including the utilities or 'luxury' bills like the phone, cable and internet.

On top of that Christmas is coming up.

I've got a few commissions to do/be paid for but that's still a drip in the bucket compared to everything.

I'm so tired and frustrated and upset.

I just don't know what I'm going to do.

What will happen if I keep failing to get a part time job?

Isn't my life shitty enough as is?

APPARENTLY NOT HAHA.

The problem is that I don't have a safety net.

Everything depends on memeME.

There's no parents or other relatives I could mooch off of or anything like that.

And the state won't do jack shit because they let too many people on welfare services before the economy burst and are slowly cutting back more and more on people.

I just want to die. I hate my life.

Every bright light is dulled and muddied in a sea of darkness and despair.

I haven't seriously touched neopets in over a month. I haven't picked up a video game in about a week.

I'm just so frustrated and miserable that those might as well be my middle name.

☑ Lemonade

☑ Skyward Sword LP

☑ Cute pink booties on my feat

feet

☑ inability to type

Time to curl up in bed and watch the rest of this stupid LP and hopefully feel better in the morning.

G'night plurk.