i don't know in how far it's bee noticeable or has bled into interactions on plurk and into rping in general, but lately i've been feeling a lot more negatively about stuff that i used to take in stride

it's nobody's fault and it's not something i like very much.

not sure if rp is the cause of it or if it's a more general thing and i just notice strongly with rp. either way.

D:

( this isn't to say that i feel negatively about all of it, there's a lot of things i absolutely adore, but jabs pointed out that maybe it's no longer a case of good outweighing bad. )

idk yet how to combat this. maybe i'll take a plurk hiatus? maybe i'll hide away or maybe i'll throw myself into stuff and try to just work through it?

maybe i'll make a new plurk account, just because a fresh start seems nice? IDEK

i honestly have no idea and i'm not looking for buttpats, and i'm not trying to whine or complain too much, but i've noticed that it affects my motivation pretty hard, so

idk apologies for that i suppose

maybe i'll just become a hermit crab and make icons all day would that be a solution

i'm selfish and want to say no stay forever but it's your feelings and sometimes a break does help

sometimes it's just a matter of sleeping it over, idk

to be fair i've been sitting on this for.... maybe two weeks or so, now?

maybe longer

so it's not something a good night's sleep can fix, i'm afraid

but i've started a mood diary thing (the pandas are so cute) and after tomorrow i'll have something useful to do at work again, and i'll go running regularly again, so... maybe it'll work itself out

basically this is just a whole lotta whining i guess

yeah, dwrp can really interfere in its own fun sometimes

it is, and i think i used to be better at weathering that? but these days, things that didn't bother me do bother me

drive by smooch on my way out

this is always a sucky way to feel, since a hobby is supposed to make you feel better, not worse. :c plurk hiatus miiight help, i hope you can get to the bottom of it.

thanks guys

i just want to be a pretentious hipster loved and adored by the masses without any effort on my part is that so much to ask for !!

Best of luck, bb. Feel better. Let us know if there's anything we can do. <3

You are most definitely adored by the masses over here. I fully support taking some time to yourself to decompress. Plurk and RP can get overwhelming, and if it's gone on this long, I'd say it's a well

needed step back. I would selfishly ask you not to step back too far though, because I adore your face.

^

I'll miss you bb and I hope you don't take off for long, but yeah, you do what you need

YOU CANT BE PRETENTIOUS AND FRIENDS W ME IS NOT POSSIble

ilu tonaface & if you think talking it out would help any, I'm always here jsyk.

stepping away is probay the only way to put rp-specific frustrations into perspective, but I hope you feel generally better soon! <3 (& I'll be home soon & we can totally talk about it if you need)

i think the problem is probably a lack of overall balance that means i get hung of on things that wouldn't bother me or that i could recognise as genuinely not that big of a deal otherwise

so maybe i'll just close down plurk a little more often because it can be overwhelming and foster an environment of comparison as much as it can be a medium for conveying love or a useful tool for planning

and i'm afraid i currently fall more on the former than the latter end of the scale

idk i'll just try to take care of myself, it'll probably be all right.

you're all lovely, thank you for your comments

laufeyson: i like being a positive person, i'd like to maintain that. so i guess i'll work on that.

thehoodedfigures: WHY IS THAT NOT POSSIBLE THO will you no longer love me if i'm a pretentious hipster IS THAT WHAT YOU'RE SAYING

IM SAYIN IM A LOSER BAE SO WHY DONT YOU KILL ME

BC I LIKE U SHUT UP

/adores

Yes, do take a few steps back a while if it might help.