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2015-07-30T22:52:04.000Z
so I haven't used this in a long time. gfdhjk but I've got a counseling appointment in a little bit and I am just... rollin on anxiety, man
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2015-07-30T22:52:15.000Z
trying not to freak out
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2015-07-30T22:52:28.000Z
(this is Red's feelings plurk, in case you're like wtf is this)
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2015-07-30T22:53:05.000Z
I just need to flail a little bit somewhere, so feel free to ignore this! I'm just. trying not to hyperventilate at work.
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2015-07-30T22:53:26.000Z
also how did I live like this?? how was I this anxious every single day for years and years. how did I even stand it.
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2015-07-30T22:53:37.000Z
how could I not realize that something was horribly wrong ghfdkj
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2015-07-30T22:53:56.000Z
but yeah.... this trip has me majorly freaking out. more so than I expected, I think
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2015-07-30T22:54:08.000Z
even with most of my family knowing I'm gay now I'm just
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2015-07-30T22:54:23.000Z
idk
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2015-07-30T22:54:36.000Z
I'm bouncing back and forth between not wanting to see people again and face everything
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2015-07-30T22:54:53.000Z
and wanting to see everyone and being really kind of panicked and sad that maybe they don't want to see me
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2015-07-30T22:55:50.000Z
(I'm going back to my home state for the first time since I left under semi-mysterious circumstances, for anyone who might read this and is confused. I haven't seen most of these people in two years.)
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2015-07-30T22:58:11.000Z
also... apologies in advance if I start using this plurk more in the upcoming weeks
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2015-07-30T22:58:31.000Z
I'd rather dump this shit here than have it spill elsewhere
dee#
2015-07-30T22:58:51.000Z
hugs you
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2015-07-30T23:00:09.000Z
I also havent seen my counselor.... in a while...
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2015-07-30T23:00:21.000Z
I brought my binder so I can change into it before I go over there ;;;;;
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2015-07-30T23:00:32.000Z
because I feel more comfortable with it on, and she hasnt seen it yet ;;;
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2015-07-30T23:00:51.000Z
I think I was waiting for it to show up in the mail last time I had a session
вσиє αвуѕѕ ∂υѕт
2015-07-30T23:01:14.000Z
ahhh hon... how DID you do this... :<
вσиє αвуѕѕ ∂υѕт
2015-07-30T23:01:19.000Z
i'm glad you're seeing your counselor
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2015-07-30T23:09:51.000Z
me too
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2015-07-30T23:10:09.000Z
like, the fact that my chronic horrible stomach problems totally went away when I moved out here speaks a lot
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2015-07-30T23:10:25.000Z
and now I'm back to not really being able to eat and feeling nauseous and in pain all the time
вσиє αвуѕѕ ∂υѕт
2015-07-30T23:10:30.000Z
jhkjgf
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2015-07-30T23:11:04.000Z
I hate this feeling augh
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2015-07-30T23:13:11.000Z
I just hope that I leave there feeling relieved and like I can actually face this
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2015-07-30T23:13:14.000Z
and not in despair
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2015-07-30T23:13:30.000Z
WHICH sometimes happens
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2015-07-30T23:13:52.000Z
I really need a gameplan. a clear goal on some things.
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2015-07-30T23:14:09.000Z
especially when it comes to possibly seeing the boy again. I think that is the worst point out of all of this by far.
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2015-07-30T23:14:34.000Z
and I have been mentally chewing on this nonstop for two years
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2015-07-30T23:15:04.000Z
I just... UGH I would love something to be resolved. I would love to be free of all of these horrible feelings tied to different things.
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2015-07-30T23:18:51.000Z
okay. gonna quit rambling and pack up to go
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2015-07-30T23:18:56.000Z
boobs have been strapped down
크맀이⇒ᴋʀɪssʏ
2015-07-30T23:35:37.000Z
I hope it goes well sweetie
куяσиαє
2015-07-31T08:43:06.000Z
/hugs you forever
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