"I was wondering why."

"I found it strange why some of our friends, and you, took too much step forward and become so different."

It was epiphany, tho'. I could only smile and nod. But as I think again, I need to correct her statement.

I passed thousand days forward but I stepped backward for a million miles away from the last time you know who I am.

I cannot stop defining myself by the sins I carry. I wish I could turn back the time. But I can't.
She doesn't know. She won't. But I wish one day I could say sorry to her.

A sincere apology because I am not the same person she knew before.

Because I changed. In to something filthy. In to something nobody wants to be with.