i…don't have a replacement

even with updating all the style guides i'd have to do some training with anyone who's standing in for me because that's how fucked up the changes are lately to the brand guidelines

it'd be so much work to leave this job for four days that i'd rather just stay here

i don't have anyone lined up that can come in and the thought of reaching out and finding someone just fills me with awful dread

on the one hand how complicated this job is means job security but then on the other it means i can't take a vacation

i just

want four days to sleep

why do impossible tasks have to be a prerequisite for that