and have to go out to the bathroom in the hallway because WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK YOU ARE CRYING AND YOU ARE IN AN OFFICE FULL OF PEOPLE THAT MIGHT WALK BY AND SEE YOU
i know i could crowd out all these nebulously undefined bad thoughts that are kind of weighing me down this morning but it just…doesn't feel worth the effort
if i think happy i'll be happier but it's not gonna make me more productive and it'll probably make the day last longer when i'm not just staring at the desk in front of me and zoning out
(whoops, sorry for the ~woe is me~ today plurk. i didn't sleep good last night but it usually does not at all affect me like this so I APOLOGIZE IN ADVANCE FOR WEIRD)
it's so stupid too i know none of these feelings are even real and i'll shake my head at them tomorrow and think 'oh my god you be quiet have a cookie you were fine'