My grandma passed away. She had pancreatic cancer that was diagnosed in June. It hit me pretty hard that I will never see her again.

I have a new nephew. His name is Kyle. He's the son of Paul and Mai. I haven't met him yet, but I will on Monday.

Work is going really well. I was actually referred to as part of the whanau by a co-worker. I have never been part of a whanau, so that made me feel really good.

My mental health is zig zagging. I'm having panic attacks in crowds. My doctor thinks me medication is exacerbating a pre=existing condition, as my medication causes nervousness in 4% of people.

She wants me to see a psychologist. So I will have to organise that. Not excited about that. I think I'm handling it, and I don't think I need a doctor to tell me how to handle something I already am.

And I certainly don't want medication.

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wow that's a lot of life happening. sorry about your grandma :c congrats on the new kid!! YAY WHANAU. (psst you're totally part of my whanau, did I never say??)

and panic attacks suck so much, sorry you have to deal with that. i hope you find a decent solution/coping mechanism :/

also sending HUGS and much LOVE.