i NEED to do this i was supposed to last week (when i actually felt like it/wasn't this bad anxiety- or apathy-wise)

but the two ppl at my office who were suppsoed to dig up leads for me didn't get them sent until THURSDAY which was a week after i had asked

and i was fucking busy with actual work by then

now it's wednesday of the following week and i don't have much on the proofreading to-do list but oh god even with two doses of adderall and taking my anxiety medication early i do not want to email them

i don't want to email these people even if it means finally taking a vacation

we have not one but TWO fucking HR people on staff at our company now why is my boss making me do this part why why why why

i don't mind telling them about the job or meeting them when they come in or administering the proofreading test but why why do i have to reach out and ask them if they want to freelance

i would rather just fall down and break my hand again than send another one

five contacts left

Pulls close. You can do it!!

cries. i was not able to make myself send any of the other emails, but i did call my GI for a follow-up appointment which i've been putting off for three weeks

and i scheduled a meeting i needed to on outlook w/my boss. so at least i can cross off two things today from my "do this to prove you are not a piece of incompetent garbage" list

You're never a piece of garbage but it's nice to prove it

thx friend