i don't think anyone saw me except my boss this time again because haha, nothing to do on thursday afternoon in the world of proofreading

so why they get so pissy when i'm not here for 15 extra minutes (i.e., yesterday morning) is becoming a sore spot

i had no idea anything was going to be hitting my desk that morning because the account person TOOK THE PROJECT FROM THE CLIENT LATE AT NIGHT AND PROMISED IT FOR THE MORNING. WHY

STOP DOING THAT

STOP IT

im sorry i wasn't there right at 10.00 AM but I made it in time to proofread the thing anyway?? so please stop yelling at my boss

who then turns around and says 'okay, but you need to promise to be here at 10 AM every day' in the same breath as 'don't be so hard on yourself!! don't stress'

that stresses me out

i went to bed early. i'm sorry i couldn't get up in time even with setting six alarms

that's what depression fucking does to people

i understand my boss is trying to be accomodating but i still think I probably need to quit and that's so defeating but i'm sick of letting people down and hating them and hating myself

/);n;/) /holds u

crushes in hug