Ugh, its been a year since my grandfather passed and its still hard. I think thats why I didn't really plan much for halloween things since, I was at his funeral last year during this time.

I know its especially hard for my grandmother. Who, is already a pain pill addict and refuses to get help/see someone to talk about her grief. Him being gone doesn't help. at all. its only been worse this

last year with her dropping money like its hot/calling her doctors for more pain meds AFTER my mom specifically told them she is an addict.

Going into the mental health field while stuff like this goes down is rough. You want to help, you know HOW to help but trying to when you're a family member or friend is difficult.

I know its taking a toll on my mom since she's the only one remotely close by. :/ I hope this passes. Im sure it will, just hate being in the rough patch.