lord. okay, so.

my little brother's best friend, who we all grew up with since he was 7

a few years ago, when he was 21, some horrible health thing happened to him

now this kid... we met him when we all lived in the shitty trailer park, his family was a mess, was headed for a depressing and drug-filled life

and we kind of took care of him. he's said many times that kind of being adopted by my family saved him. he's like a second little brother to us.

and some horrible thing happened where idk... his digestive tract was just kind of falling apart??

and then the surgery wound wouldn't heal. so he ended up kind of having a giant open gut window for... months and months and months

pretty sure he spent at least a year in the ICU. it was... horrible...

and while he was in there... his dad lost his battle with cancer. and he wasn't able to go to the funeral.

it was absolutely horrible, but he ended up a stronger person for it, he reconnected with his troubled older brother, healed up and even had a kid

his kid is a toddler by now, I think

and my mom just texted me.... to tell me that he's in the ICU again

this time with a tumor on his kidney, which is bleeding

and while he's there.... his brother fucking dies.

I can't believe this.

his brother apparently was also having horrible health problems, and had his ESOPHAGUS REMOVED??

and had been trying to build up weight (he was 6' and only 100 pounds) so he could have another surgery

and I guess he just suddenly died idk. I can't believe this is all happening again.

all that's left of his family is him and his mom, and his mom has been battling with brain tumors his whole life.

I'm so blown away by all of this. I can't believe it's happening again and I just

I wish there was something I could do. idk.

I don't get it.

I feel so horrible about this.

oh man ;;;;

wow that is so horrible... im so sorry red