Like, all those feelings you feel when you realize you're in love with someone and you tell them that.

And the anger, sadness and frustration when they don't love you back.

I remember exactly when I got over it too. Or rather when I realized I was over it..

I just gradually took all those feelings and repressed them way down deep until they stopped piping up.(Or have they?)

I kind of want to call her up or something. I'm not still interested in her like that. I just think it'd be interesting to talk to her again. We were pretty good friends before.

I've encountered love twice (once from me and once from another) and both times it's pushed people who I had been friends with completely away.

So now I just avoid it entirely.

You cannot escape it

It will hunt you down

^no it won't. Maybe something will accidentally happen if you're lucky, but the experience of mutual romantic love is not guaranteed to anyone, and the weirder and less social you are, the less likely it is.

Did I say mutual?

Well you didn't specify. Falling in love is certainly more difficult to avoid but by no mean inevitable.

I dunno. I like to think it would happen. But sometimes I feel like I've come to terms with being alone forever.

It hasn't been to hard to avoid either just because I avoid other people. Like, go way out of my way to avoid other people.

I might fall for somebody again someday, but the odds they would also be single or actually interested in me or that it would last even if they were seem pretty low.

I'm an amusement. Maybe good for a laugh or two or a weird conversation. But not someone you'd wanna be together with. I'm certainly not attractive.

Especially if that's what I think of myself.

Jeez.

I could change. I could better myself. Improve my outlook. But I won't. It's too easy to just wallow and not worry about it unless I'm drunk on Plurk.

dang it, Braden. this some heavy shit.

like, I feel like most people are almost certain to find a romantic partner they are compatible with at some point, who is a also interested and available.

it happens all the time.

and I know its easy to think that you'll be the outlier thats alone forever, but just statistically, thats very unlikely.

I mean no one says you have to be with someone if you're happy alone, but if you aren't there's sure as heck stuff you can do about it

right

Louis CK - "There's someone for everyone" Is Bullshi...

not that I think you're lightspeed ugly"