im just gonna radio silence on twitter, skype and anywhere else i have to deal with people

i cant rn

i cant anything hhhh

something is close to breaking so i need time to stop

just stop and make myself okay

the distractions are helping but yeah i need to stop thinking about things

no obligations, no feeling like i let people down, no guilt, no having to pretend im alright, yep

im gonna be fine

i just wish i had someone to share these things of myself with

i dont even have abram to do that since he never knew how or doesnt even try in a way i need him to

i wish i had a papyrus who's dumb and cheerful and so full of positivity that believes in you always or a frisk who cares and asks questions and doesn't judge but always has the determination to spare you guilt

i never met any real people like that tho, only myself when i was frisk-like wwww

thats ironic that im too tired to be the person i need to help myself

heh back to willing myself to be okay