That's what I needed totally a dream about getting raped.

I mean there was tiny animals but Jesus Christ

Fuck my mind. never eating Nutella before bed again.

it wasn't even explicit. I was just fade out. but it fucking happened and ended up being involved in the rest of the goddamned dream

jsyk I'm really uncomfortable with noncon.

being molested as a kid fucked me up for it. I can't even watch law and order. or criminal minds when it's about a serial rapist.

Oh my god that lead me to the most uncomfortable conversation with my mother ever

'mom. please watch something else.' 'what? no.' 'mom I don't ask this at all. please.' 'why?' 'oh I don't know maybe it's fucking making me remember your ex boyfriend using me as a sex toy' '....'

'then just go to your room. I'm watching this.' 'are you fucking kidding me?'

'I pay rent. I have every right to be in the living room.' 'well I wanna watch this.' 'mom. please' 'fine whatever stop whining about it'

Yeah that's my mother in a nutshell.

my mother is a cunt.

I am honestly only here because the doctor asked me to keep living with her. she can't do a lot of things anymore. I have to give her her insulin help her when she falls

Because David pretty much shut her out save for a few things.

'family get togethers' mean going to see his other sisters and fiancée's parents

Fuck dreams and fuck everything else.

holy shit, I'm sorry

does this happen often? fucked up nightmares, I mean

no, which I'm glad for.

maybe once twice a year?

still sucks, but at least it isn't frequent

Yeah. it just hits harder because of that