i'm keeping her off the floor

probably for nearly a month

i feel like I'M victor frankenstein

and this keeps not working in spite of all my calculations

so i try again a different way

to create someone who isn't going to suck

the emperor asked me if i was sure i could handle three people who were basically straight out of school

i told her i was keeping this girl off the floor, but said i would only attempt it if she thought i could do it

she didn't say anything, but i woke up to the email saying the girl was officially in onboarding

so i guess that's my response

i DON'T know that i can handle it, but

i can't actually handle anything

and also Em is almost not even a risk anymore, she's improving so quickly

do i wish i had someone who could just fucking play without having to be trained

yeah

but

if that's not available, then i have to keep trying means of getting new people to do what they're supposed to

in only semi-related news, Merida and i were like

we want to play volleyball, what if we started a team of people who aren't any good at playing volleyball

she used to actually play in high school, and i played it one summer and then really halfassedly a few other times shortly after

and we were like we wanna do this but we would both be terrible

it's not actually a thing we're gonna do, we were just honking about it