For real, I've been holding shit in for IDK how long but fuck it. I gotta spill, even to people who more than likely don't give a shit

Two months ago I find out my psychotic stalkerish abusive angry CRAZY ex gets out of prison. One of the first things he does is make it known to me through my family that he's out and knows my address

AWESOME

After that my family and friends and myself proceed to be harassed by this piece of shit and acquaintances of his through text messages, e-mails, social media, even going so far as to showing up at my grandma's

MORE AWESOME

Then. The stupid threats. Saying how I'm going to get sued for this and that, emotional damage (ha) and how he works for a lawyer and knows judges and is going to sue me for X amount of money

Because I had shit of his and didn't return it to him when he went to PRISON

Dumb shit like that. Not AWESOME, just LAUGHABLE

Even the dissertation-length fucking message sent to one of my cousins not 24 hours after hanging out with me. Laughable

THEN. I get contacted by the authority saying that a threat is made against me and I should stay somewhere else with someone else in the meantime until they figure it out to be safe

SUPER AWESOME, RIGHT?

So for the past.. IDK how long, I've been staying elsewhere. Battery out of phone, no social media, barely any contact save for family, boring boring boring stupid safe but boring.

NOT AWESOME.

Then today. I find out my grandma is missing.

I am home now. I'm sick of being run out of my own goddamn home and dgaf anymore. This is bullshit.

She has been missing since the morning. Went out to run errands or w/e, never came back. Police involved, we're calling hospitals and shit like crazy

Just recently found out they located her! Not too far from here even! They found her, the police, because she flagged them down. And, according to my family, and this is ridiculous,

When the police approached her and talked to her she fell on her head and they had to take her to the E.R.

I want to go visit her at the E.R. wherever it is, but my family insists they have it handled

Furthering my suspicion that perhaps foul play was at foot

SO not awesome. Oh, and a few minutes ago the water in the whole apartment complex was shut off unexpectedly, even the toilet.

I'm super glad she isn't still missing at least.

Goddamnit. I'm walking to the bar, sitting my ass down and having a drink. Because this is bullshit

This is a lot to deal with at once, I'm sorry you're going through all this.

One person should only have to deal with so much bullshit at once ;_; I think I've met my limit

Like, not just that, but surpassed it

YO GOD if you're reading this, YOU DID GOOD. I know life SUCKS

STOP

Ugh if anything please let this stupid half assed story explain my absence and lack of interest in able to do anything else other than worry and be anxious and angry

No emoticon, no joke (which is usually my first go-to in avoiding real feelings), just I'm tired.

And then this whole game exploding thing happens and I can't help but think I should do something about that... but psycho ex and criminals threatening me and my family, ahhhh, IDK if I can do it with grace

I'd be more wary about the fact that I'm sharing this on a 'social media' (which I was advised against) but not only is it on a different I.P. address but damnit I just don't care anymore

And since therapy is too goddamn much to afford I'm gonna pretend some peoples are out there reading this shit and thinking "yeah that's not normal" so I can feel "this isn't normal" and be somewhat ok with it

Okay maybe one emoticon

So super appropriate

o thank goodness she has been found. Hurt and needs to go the hospital but found.

So basically if any of ya'll get drunk plurk'd later don't be surprised

Damnit

I'm not equipped to handle this stuff

I'll be around if you need me, man

idk how long, because im hella sick and barely awake, but I'll BE HERE

Omg please don't expire. I don't have many people to confide in my extra special cynicism to

And who will recite "that eulogy" at my funeral if you die before me???

I'll be ok just sleepy

Wow, holy shit.

THAT IS NOT NORMAL.

I know. I've had 4 days off so far

I've been all gross

okay I'm done

verloren1983 I appreciate you not being done tho. It kind of helps with this insanity

and Decathect YO four days is... I wouldn't even know what to do with that time. How the fuck are you managing

I'm out of comforty stickers thogh.

*though

It's ok. I can feel your intent from here even~

It feels good

Lol I watched Netflix and passed out hardcore

Sounds like a night for me in any day that ends in -day

Oh wow... one of my RL friends showed up at my doorstep. And hugged me and shit. Something I'm not usually accustomed to be able to deal with, but it happened

So maybe all this shit that's happening has another meaning and I should open myself to that. Or something

Maybe

I think it might be good to