My PCP started me on meds and it's been a couple weeks and I'm hoping things improve because right now it's p r e t t y a w f u l

My depression before was a lot of disinterest and inability to feel happy, without necessarily being sad or low self-esteem. So with the meds, that hasn't changed at all (possibly a little worse?), but now my anxiety is gone. Which is what I used to motivate myself most of the time.

And also I'm tired all the time.

Also I made the choice to pass on a couple work projects because (1) I'm trying to prioritize self care for once in my life, (2) I'm tired all the time, and (3) I'm in PT for my knee injury so it hurts all the time and I feel like standing around for 15hrs would be unbearable.

So basically I spend every day awkwardly having basically no interest in things, tired, and trying to find random ways to make money, be productive, keep busy, and/or entertain myself. Which also not going out hardly at all because I'm super broke.

And questioning all my life choices of course, because how did I get here and what's wrong with my brain and how do I fix it

tldr: my brain is a worthless lump right now and I apologize for being absent and disinterested and flaky

/hugs

I also haven't done my laundry for literally 3+ weeks aside from select garments. And I haven't run out of clothes yet but it's super embarrassing. My basket doth overfloweth.

/hugs