Trying not to have a breakdown in the middle of work because I'm so fucking tired of feeling like this but it doesn't matter what I feel because I don't have the insurance to get the help I want anyway.
Add into that my fear of medications anyway and my general possible non mental health related issues that are probably just a result of me being a hypochondriac. But it's still adding to my stress regardless.
And like all this upset and me holding it back at work is turning me into an irritable ass and I'm already not super aware of what my expressions are at any given time so I try to look happy happy happy but like I can't do that and focus on my job at the same time it takes a shit ton of effort.
I'm so tired. And I want to go home but I still have 3 1/2 hours left.
stay strong fremb i believe in you