When I'm told that my depression cycle has 'shitty timing' and how Cassandra has 'always been there when I'm upset' and that I'm unwilling to help her if it's not about me too, and it's all my fault that mental illness cripples me, I wonder why the hell I put up with her.

For her to say that she does so much for me when I'm upset, and to gloss over everything I do for her just makes me sick.

Apparently, we keep going through these 'cycles'. Like. Gee, I wonder fucking why. Maybe it's because you're a fucking asshole who throws hissy fits when she doesn't get her way.

Then she hung up on me. After I told her that I don't want to come to her house, because I can't deal with shit right now (I can't even deal with my own life right now) she said 'I guess I'll talk to you when I do' and I started to say something and she hung up on me.

geiszler APPARENTLY.

Lmao my plurk still thinks your name is booley.

I'm shaking I'm so mad.

LIKE I DONT FUCKING PUT MY OWN SHIT ON THE BACK BURNER TO MAKE HER HAPPY ALL THE FUCKING TIME.

I just made a dragon noise out loud and scared Gordon.

Every few months we do this because I get tired of being treated like dirt, and I actually speak my mind. And then she gets mad at me, says she's not going to voice her opinions anymore, as if I'm censoring her, and it makes me want to stab someone in the face.

Exactly. Maybe this is why you're struggling to find bridesmaids, Cassie.

I love you so much.

lmao that reminds me of my mother and grandmother being so upset when no one came to either of their birthday celebrations and i was just like... that's what happens... when you're a heinous bitch to everyone...

RIGHT?!

But no. This is my fault. How dare I have a depressive episode when she wants me to be the one to do shit for her.

Now I'm going to the pharmacy all mad and I'm probably gonna impulse buy chocolate because she's a dick.

um idk why you can't just time your mental illness more conveniently for those around you sarah, jfc

I know. I'm a shitty friend. God. So selfish.

for real like if you could just stop having health problems that'd be great

I'M CURED.

And then my mom got mad at me for not being able to buy her huge shopping list because we can't afford it. Apparently I prioritize what I WANT and never think about what she wants. Like. Today has been AWESOME.

Gordon is the only person in my general vicinity who isn't being a massive cornucopia of dicks.

And my bus is here. Muah muah muah I love you both!

love you!