at least you're depressed on a couch!!!

hhh can't sleep

time to cry?

I just

I have 3 emotions:
manic
soul-crushingly depressed
numb

disassociating is my only way to regulate?? apparently??

I'm just so fucking grateful and humbled by my support system and it feels wrong!

nothing can feel this easy

nothing is ever this easy!

I'm so ! scared! that all this support is just going to disappear!

I'm having so much trouble trusting the support I'm being given

it's not that I don't trust the people, I'm just! afraid

I'm . praying. so much

I'm so Fucking Scared to let go control over my life and where it takes me

how do I stop bracing for the other shoe to drop

how can I just. stop. and trust in my fucking fiance

I can't pretend that another fucking trigger is being in the closet on tdov

isn't*