i gottt 8 hours of sleep but i still woke up feeling like an inhuman monster and like ive forgotten how to do anything but sleep and cry what now

i guess that makes me a baby actually

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i love this bc sjy is such a weak baby and whx is just looking at the camera like "are u seeing this shit"

that giant Christmas cross is back up at my neighbor's house and all i can think about when i see it is that fucking erasmus as a catholic priest au

there's just so much shit i have to do that all i can mentally and emotionally respond with is "id rather die"

which isnt like. an active threat to myself just. that's my kneejerk response to literally anything right now.

PRIEST R AS

preist raaas

it reminded me bc i think liast time it was up we were talking about priest ras last winter and i felt particularly judged by god at that moment

like talking about priest fucking and then i walked out to GIANT LIT UP CROSS across from my house

a very surreal experience

LMGNFBFMGN

CRYING

[god voice] cut that shit out, my child

he can take it up with me when i get there

for now the only thing that brings me pleasure right now is badbrain catharsis and sin

I need everything to have priest aus now

mom: are you in the bathroom?
me, sitting in my room, apparently having to think VERY hard about whether or not i'm in the bathroom: um......................................................................................................................................... no?

when can i sleep

anyways i saw a dead cat on the side of the road that i take to work today and so i'm... going to take the other road, the one i had my crash on

how to get moelle to face her fears:

i was going to make a joke but i'm upset again wheeze

i see dead animals on the road all the time and i'm usually pretty okay but i had like. a really bad time. today.

... oh i should cw this

anyways this is the second time this week i've had a fucking attack where i can barely breathe so that's fun (i pulled over until i was calm)