i've been seen, i must run as fast as i can

jkfhasdf i'm glad we both like filled up our whole dumb cards

GOD i have a friend who keeps insisting i'm an extrovert with social anxiety which i think is valid but also . have you seen a fucking leaf before. have you ever climbed a fucking rock. holy shit

not even a very big rock just a rock that makes you feel taller. Wow

my desire to escape society and go feral is so great...

akjshdf i love how hype you are about literally everything tho

that's a good quality to have

i spent like half of my life being too tired to enjoy things!!! i have so much enthusiasm!!!! i have been told i am Too Much All The Time And Probably Should Invest My Energy To Something Positive, which is also fair

you're like a BORDER COLLIE

thank u mipp....... i will control my energyh.... like a dbz spirit bomb.... or squeezing one of those shitty ketchup bottles where if you're not very careful you either get nothing or a ketchup laser

KETCHUP LASER LMAO

this petty bitch

that's me

i love this

god that's an incredible analogy tho

that's sora..... i love that him taking selfies like a jackass is canon now the kh universe is really good

HE DESERVES!! TO BE AN IDIOT!!! AND GUMMISTAGRAM MUST KNOW!!!

i haven't done a function stack just yet but since i am a begrudging mbti scientist i'll probably get to it at some point

a function stack for EPHRIM 'scuse me

three hours later and i think ephrim is an istp and im losing it it's very funny

i keep waffling about him because the thing he canonically thinks he lacks is a home but i don't know if it's because he feels like he's incomplete as a part of society without a home or if he feels incomplete within himself without a home

we know he feels untethered as a person but the narrative is very good at making him act consistently without letting us know why

i think that sylvia being very dogmatic and persistent about him being someone who chases after glory and approval is really important but he's only really in his element as a researcher and a gardener, which makes me think that he was doing what he did because he fell ass backward into being important

it's easy just to be important, but once he tried earning that importance, he came up short because time and time again he kept doing things to make sure people remembered that he was important when in reality he was just undermining himself by his desperation for approval

i think he realizes this later, even if he wasn't totally willing to admit he was just... nobody and lost everything because he forgot that, hey, sometimes you probably should go more diplomatic instead of less

so i'm pretty sure it was more of a "nerd who suddenly got super powers and happened to be hot suddenly realizing he's not hot shit and trying desperately to scream that he isn't owned while he tries not to fuck up more" situation more than it is a "hey i'm naturally super cool and important and an actual leader worship me" situation

sylvia's on record with saying that he's walking a fine line between delusion and peeking out of those delusions to realize that he's accomplished nothing and if he does he'll just fuckkkkin lose his goddamn shit lol

lots of expectations for himself, no support for him emotionally except from a sparing few people who would die for him and he would die for them too unironically, he's not that much of a pill

he's just an intensely sad dude who got played real bad and had to deal with it and ended up alienating a LOT of people on the way and it's kind of sad i think but also... what a fuckin toad lol

i DO want him to be happy but i also just kind of want to be like... hi ephrim............ i know it's sad that you didn't have a big romantic destiny for your future................ but the plants are really nice don't feel bad about the plants

he's also better than he thinks he is at taking things apart to see how they work and then putting them back together in a way that can help other people which is a very istp thing........ baby just do that you dum fuck

okay function stacks for those who are actually interested in this type of thing:

me (isfp): fi se ni te
sora (esfp): se fi te ni
ephrim (istp): ti se ni fe

fi se ni te: expressing how i feel about things comes first - that means i'd better see a whole lot of things! i wonder what it all means? i guess someone should come organize it all, but if it's organized, it sure as hell wasn't me who did it.

se fi te ni: oh man i need to see EVERYTHING! and i feel so deeply about it all, it's very exciting. i think things should be set to rights, and you know, i think i should probably do it. do i have a plan? no, but that shouldn't stop me!

ti se ni fe: i know how things work precisely in my head. i don't need to explain how it works as long as it continues to work irl, thank you. i have a intense goal i'm working toward, and that goal gives me meaning. the validation of others is important to me, but people take offense so easily that i just do what i like and apologize later.

mbti analysis thing i'm reading: esfps probably shouldn't give advice about things until they've personally experienced the thing because the advice will probably be unwelcome and also shit
me: cackling at sora constantly