I spent all that time cooking

bun said it was good

SQUISH

EAT A FOOD

and today, on a day that my spoon count is dwindled

I HAVE TO PUT IT TOGETHER AND MY BRAIN IS OVERWHELMED BY THE THOUGHT

bun called me to let me know that we were supposed to have a meeting with investors today.....and that I need to get paperwork...and I just want to sleep

I took a three hour nap this morning and have just literally been in bed with the cats all day

I love him, but sometimes he says things that my mind hangs on to and one of them is 'you don't work. what do you have to be stressed about??' and it wasn't meant to be said asshole-y....it just.

and now I'm laying here, chastising myself for not eating, trying to convince myself to put clothes on and maybe go outside...and I just won't go. AND IT IS INFURIATING and yet not infuriating enough to actually happen?!

listen, sometimes you start the day already out of spoons

I know. but bun doesn't. he threw me into this conversation with the investor and is expecting me to give him answers that I couldn't give bun and....I just spent a few minutes staring at a text

like.....i......just. am I stupid? I must be dumb. I'm gonna get a text back saying something incredibly obvious that I'm missing.

the worst. this is not a good afternoon. I just want to stare vacantly into space.