wh

you?? literally live with chronic pain????

that expects some degree of dependency???

But sure. Threaten me that you’ll call the LAPD to do a wellness check. Force everyone you know in a ten mile radio is of where I live to make sure I’m secretly snorting coke I mean make sure I’m okay.

pip i'm sorry :<

ghosthotel: my dad and her current boyfriends were both drug addicts.

so accuses me constantly of using the same excuses they do.

HHHHH

pot calling the kettle black...

“But I will do the same I did with your dad and Randy and inform your dctrs that you are abusing your meds”

what the fuckkk

like!! i get that she's probably trying to have your best interests in mind but like

maybe don't claim someone is abusing meds when you aren't dealing with what they deal with??

Mom. Pls. No. Can we not....

I blocked her.

I’m done. I’m done carrying the sins of everyone else she’s ever known.

Oh my god??

I told her I’ll unblock her if she considers apologizing to me for treating me this way. Can’t wait to see how it wonderfully extreme her reaction will be!

Love that there’s a nonzero chance she will call the cops on me anyway. Because I deserved to get assaulted by the LAPD for upsetting her.

Im honestly shocked. She lived with you in LA. Like. She seemed to be the most understanding of the situation wtf

And god if anyone in her life has the right to be addicted to drugs it’s you. Jfc. She KNOWS what kind of pain you’re in.

Haha. No. She doesn’t have my best interests in mind here. She says she’s tired of having lying addicts in her life and she doesn’t need to put up with any of the ~bullshit we out her through.

It’s all about her and how tired she is of all of us lying despicable filthy drug addicts who take advantage of her and hurt her feelings.

DrFishbone: that doesn’t matter to her. at all. randy recently dislocated his arm at the shoulder and she refused to let him take pain medicine more than tylenol.

Dad became an addict because of a nasty football accident as a teen that shattered his knee and permanently disabled him. So he took painkillers to deal with the horrendous pain. And took them more and more and here we are.

She needs to get her ass to therapy to deal with this PTSD she has about drug use tbh. And not. Call the most infamously violent cops on a sick woman.

As if that will help anything

I’m so tired. I am in agony. So you know what? I took extra painkillers. I did. I admit that. Because the pain has gotten so bad (thanks to the sciatica) that my current dosage isn’t enough anymore. We haven’t increased my dosage as my pain has increased, and yet I’m exclected to treat that like it’s still enough.

how she expects you to go through this without prescription-strength painkillers is beyond me

Yeah like. If mom in all her insanity called the LAPD to my door I’d be seriously scared for my life. I’m probably a little safer bc I’m white but we all know the cops here will beat the shit out of me anyway, and probably kill ny cats while they’re at it, lol.

you only have a few months left of this pain

nirnroot: dunno. pull myself up by my bootstraps I guess.

i'm proud of you for putting a barrier between the two of you right now, though; you need the space and she's very clearly upset and in her head

uhhhh

boundaries are important, and she needs to get help over this

do you have someone in LA that could come safely chill with you in a worst-case scenario? like... i mean i'm assuming you told her in confidence that you were taking extra because of the pain, but cops right now are fucking terrifying

but i am concerned that if she gets more involved in your surgery recovery that she might try to take your meds away

She accuses me of sabotaging my own job. Because I had an extremely bad night last night and was loopy on painkillers today. She told me I chose to ruin this job and get fired.

what the fuck

because you obviously... want, to be in this terrifying position of "what next"???

Here’s rhe kicker.

Last night she was telling me TO QUIT because of how hard it will be on my health.

what the fuck

I like how she went from wanting me to quit to focus on myself to accusing me of deliberately sabotaging my own job.

That logic sure is internally consistent.

yeah that seriously concerns me that she'll fuck with your meds during recovery

I offered her so many solutions. I told her she could count my pills every day. I told her I’d stop taking them entirely. I explained to her that i have BEEN TRYING TO GO OFF THEM FOR MONTHS BUT MY DOCTOR LITERALLY SAID NO.

All she cares about is that i “lied” to her.

I am so fucking angry. She can go fuck herself. I’ll take care of the surgery on my fucking own and she can stay the fuck out of it with her sanctimonious drama whore screeching.

nirnroot: hahahaha she probably would

That or just take them and not give me access to them at all period.

“Just take some Tylenol!”

ok.

is there anyone else that can come help take care of you while you're recovering? because you seriously are going to need that help, but if you don't trust her and she's fucked with your meds in the past/her boyfriend's meds, i do recommend looking at other options

Not really.

I’m pretty much alone out here right now. My entire family is in the east coast, immediate and extended.

i wonder if your insurance would help cover the cost of a home-visiting nurse... or if you qualify for one w this surgery

Immediate family and extended family. That wording was probably unclear, sorry.

It’s funny. The last time I got really sick and needed surgery, I was admitted to the hospital. And mom and I had a screaming fight and she stormed out of my hospital room and left me all by myself for hours.

I spent the entire time bawling.

nirnroot: sadly I don’t think I would but that’s definitely not a bad idea to ask... couldn’t hurt to try, I’ll keep it in mind

... but I think I am actually going to quit both my jobs.

What’s the fucking point. I can barely function, painkillers entirely aside. I can’t focus bc of sleeplessness, and I can’t sleep bc of pain.

Rinse and repeat.

.... just can’t get over her trying to gently say “em don’t do this to yourself you need rest you’re tired” to “you chose to fuck this up on purpose and now you get to live with the consequences.”

How does that even escalate so quickly...that's ridiculous

pip, this job is a huge opportunity, and you shouldn't make that decision on the heels of a huge fight

if it is the right course of action, you should make it when things are calm and you aren't upset

No. I was supposed to get quote a lot done for one of my bosses today and none of it got done because I spent hours arguing with mom.

Said boss implied strongly that she would fire me if we didn’t move ahead soon. So either I pull the trigger tonight or she pulls it tomorrow, no bones about it.

I think I also have to recognize what mom was saying before she decided to fucking hulk out. I barely sleep because of the agony I am in. I can’t sit up, I want walk, even lying down is painful. I’m constantly distracted by pain and sleeplessness. I can’t focus.

It’s just ... I wanted it to work so badly but it won’t.

Maybe when my back is fixed I can speak to them again, haha... see if they still would like me onboard... ah well.

they have liked the work you've done it might be possible