ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T00:41:32.000Z
love it when mom calls me a drug addict. Love that when I deny it, it’s just even more definitive proof I’m an addict. If agree to it, I’m an addict.
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ɢᴏᴢᴛғᴜᴋʀ
2020-10-30T00:43:42.000Z
wh
ɢᴏᴢᴛғᴜᴋʀ
2020-10-30T00:43:49.000Z
you?? literally live with chronic pain????
ɢᴏᴢᴛғᴜᴋʀ
2020-10-30T00:44:00.000Z
that expects some degree of dependency???
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ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T00:44:01.000Z
But sure. Threaten me that you’ll call the LAPD to do a wellness check. Force everyone you know in a ten mile radio is of where I live to make sure I’m secretly snorting coke I mean make sure I’m okay.
ɢᴏᴢᴛғᴜᴋʀ
2020-10-30T00:44:20.000Z
ɢᴏᴢᴛғᴜᴋʀ
2020-10-30T00:44:28.000Z
pip i'm sorry :<
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T00:44:31.000Z
ghosthotel: my dad and her current boyfriends were both drug addicts.
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T00:44:44.000Z
so accuses me constantly of using the same excuses they do.
ɢᴏᴢᴛғᴜᴋʀ
2020-10-30T00:45:58.000Z
HHHHH
ɢᴏᴢᴛғᴜᴋʀ
2020-10-30T00:46:05.000Z
pot calling the kettle black...
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T00:46:20.000Z
“But I will do the same I did with your dad and Randy and inform your dctrs that you are abusing your meds”
ɢᴏᴢᴛғᴜᴋʀ
2020-10-30T00:46:30.000Z
what the fuckkk
ɢᴏᴢᴛғᴜᴋʀ
2020-10-30T00:46:46.000Z
like!! i get that she's probably trying to have your best interests in mind but like
ɢᴏᴢᴛғᴜᴋʀ
2020-10-30T00:47:08.000Z
maybe don't claim someone is abusing meds when you aren't dealing with what they deal with??
Mom. Pls. No. Can we not....
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T00:48:58.000Z
I blocked her.
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T00:49:16.000Z
I’m done. I’m done carrying the sins of everyone else she’s ever known.
🦎 ᴘʀᴏᴘᴀɢᴀɴᴅᴀ
2020-10-30T00:49:39.000Z
Oh my god??
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T00:51:35.000Z
I told her I’ll unblock her if she considers apologizing to me for treating me this way. Can’t wait to see how it wonderfully extreme her reaction will be!
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T00:52:26.000Z
Love that there’s a nonzero chance she will call the cops on me anyway. Because I deserved to get assaulted by the LAPD for upsetting her.
🦎 ᴘʀᴏᴘᴀɢᴀɴᴅᴀ
2020-10-30T00:53:07.000Z
Im honestly shocked. She lived with you in LA. Like. She seemed to be the most understanding of the situation wtf
And god if anyone in her life has the right to be addicted to drugs it’s you. Jfc. She KNOWS what kind of pain you’re in.
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T00:54:44.000Z
Haha. No. She doesn’t have my best interests in mind here. She says she’s tired of having lying addicts in her life and she doesn’t need to put up with any of the ~bullshit we out her through.
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T00:56:01.000Z
It’s all about her and how tired she is of all of us lying despicable filthy drug addicts who take advantage of her and hurt her feelings.
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T00:59:26.000Z
DrFishbone: that doesn’t matter to her. at all. randy recently dislocated his arm at the shoulder and she refused to let him take pain medicine more than tylenol.
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T01:00:34.000Z
Dad became an addict because of a nasty football accident as a teen that shattered his knee and permanently disabled him. So he took painkillers to deal with the horrendous pain. And took them more and more and here we are.
She needs to get her ass to therapy to deal with this PTSD she has about drug use tbh. And not. Call the most infamously violent cops on a sick woman.
As if that will help anything
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T01:05:42.000Z
I’m so tired. I am in agony. So you know what? I took extra painkillers. I did. I admit that. Because the pain has gotten so bad (thanks to the sciatica) that my current dosage isn’t enough anymore. We haven’t increased my dosage as my pain has increased, and yet I’m exclected to treat that like it’s still enough.
ᴇɴᴛᴇɪₒ
2020-10-30T01:07:09.000Z
how she expects you to go through this without prescription-strength painkillers is beyond me
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T01:07:23.000Z
Yeah like. If mom in all her insanity called the LAPD to my door I’d be seriously scared for my life. I’m probably a little safer bc I’m white but we all know the cops here will beat the shit out of me anyway, and probably kill ny cats while they’re at it, lol.
ᴇɴᴛᴇɪₒ
2020-10-30T01:07:45.000Z
you only have a few months left of this pain
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T01:07:49.000Z
nirnroot: dunno. pull myself up by my bootstraps I guess.
ᴇɴᴛᴇɪₒ
2020-10-30T01:09:00.000Z
i'm proud of you for putting a barrier between the two of you right now, though; you need the space and she's very clearly upset and in her head
Necromantic
2020-10-30T01:09:06.000Z
uhhhh
ᴇɴᴛᴇɪₒ
2020-10-30T01:09:15.000Z
boundaries are important, and she needs to get help over this
ɢᴏᴢᴛғᴜᴋʀ
2020-10-30T01:09:24.000Z
do you have someone in LA that could come safely chill with you in a worst-case scenario? like... i mean i'm assuming you told her in confidence that you were taking extra because of the pain, but cops right now are fucking terrifying
ᴇɴᴛᴇɪₒ
2020-10-30T01:09:36.000Z
but i am concerned that if she gets more involved in your surgery recovery that she might try to take your meds away
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T01:09:40.000Z
She accuses me of sabotaging my own job. Because I had an extremely bad night last night and was loopy on painkillers today. She told me I chose to ruin this job and get fired.
ɢᴏᴢᴛғᴜᴋʀ
2020-10-30T01:09:52.000Z
what the fuck
ɢᴏᴢᴛғᴜᴋʀ
2020-10-30T01:10:12.000Z
because you obviously... want, to be in this terrifying position of "what next"???
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T01:10:48.000Z
Here’s rhe kicker.
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T01:11:42.000Z
Last night she was telling me TO QUIT because of how hard it will be on my health.
ᴇɴᴛᴇɪₒ
2020-10-30T01:12:00.000Z
what the fuck
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T01:12:06.000Z
I like how she went from wanting me to quit to focus on myself to accusing me of deliberately sabotaging my own job.
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T01:12:16.000Z
That logic sure is internally consistent.
ᴇɴᴛᴇɪₒ
2020-10-30T01:13:18.000Z
yeah that seriously concerns me that she'll fuck with your meds during recovery
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T01:14:26.000Z
I offered her so many solutions. I told her she could count my pills every day. I told her I’d stop taking them entirely. I explained to her that i have BEEN TRYING TO GO OFF THEM FOR MONTHS BUT MY DOCTOR LITERALLY SAID NO.
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T01:15:20.000Z
All she cares about is that i “lied” to her.
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T01:16:09.000Z
I am so fucking angry. She can go fuck herself. I’ll take care of the surgery on my fucking own and she can stay the fuck out of it with her sanctimonious drama whore screeching.
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T01:16:32.000Z
nirnroot: hahahaha she probably would
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T01:16:47.000Z
That or just take them and not give me access to them at all period.
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T01:17:08.000Z
“Just take some Tylenol!”

ok.
ᴇɴᴛᴇɪₒ
2020-10-30T01:18:00.000Z
is there anyone else that can come help take care of you while you're recovering? because you seriously are going to need that help, but if you don't trust her and she's fucked with your meds in the past/her boyfriend's meds, i do recommend looking at other options
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T01:18:15.000Z
Not really.
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T01:18:58.000Z
I’m pretty much alone out here right now. My entire family is in the east coast, immediate and extended.
ᴇɴᴛᴇɪₒ
2020-10-30T01:19:24.000Z
i wonder if your insurance would help cover the cost of a home-visiting nurse... or if you qualify for one w this surgery
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T01:19:36.000Z
Immediate family and extended family. That wording was probably unclear, sorry.
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T01:20:24.000Z
It’s funny. The last time I got really sick and needed surgery, I was admitted to the hospital. And mom and I had a screaming fight and she stormed out of my hospital room and left me all by myself for hours.
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T01:20:31.000Z
I spent the entire time bawling.
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T01:21:18.000Z
nirnroot: sadly I don’t think I would :-( but that’s definitely not a bad idea to ask... couldn’t hurt to try, I’ll keep it in mind
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T01:22:09.000Z
... but I think I am actually going to quit both my jobs.
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T01:23:36.000Z
What’s the fucking point. I can barely function, painkillers entirely aside. I can’t focus bc of sleeplessness, and I can’t sleep bc of pain.
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T01:23:49.000Z
Rinse and repeat.
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T01:26:31.000Z
.... just can’t get over her trying to gently say “em don’t do this to yourself you need rest you’re tired” to “you chose to fuck this up on purpose and now you get to live with the consequences.”
🦎 ᴘʀᴏᴘᴀɢᴀɴᴅᴀ
2020-10-30T01:26:41.000Z
How does that even escalate so quickly...that's ridiculous
ᴇɴᴛᴇɪₒ
2020-10-30T01:27:09.000Z
pip, this job is a huge opportunity, and you shouldn't make that decision on the heels of a huge fight
ᴇɴᴛᴇɪₒ
2020-10-30T01:27:25.000Z
if it is the right course of action, you should make it when things are calm and you aren't upset
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T02:08:07.000Z
No. I was supposed to get quote a lot done for one of my bosses today and none of it got done because I spent hours arguing with mom.
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T02:08:38.000Z
Said boss implied strongly that she would fire me if we didn’t move ahead soon. So either I pull the trigger tonight or she pulls it tomorrow, no bones about it.
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T02:09:41.000Z
I think I also have to recognize what mom was saying before she decided to fucking hulk out. I barely sleep because of the agony I am in. I can’t sit up, I want walk, even lying down is painful. I’m constantly distracted by pain and sleeplessness. I can’t focus.
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T02:09:51.000Z
It’s just ... I wanted it to work so badly but it won’t.
ⲣⲓⲣⲣⲓⲉ
2020-10-30T02:10:16.000Z
Maybe when my back is fixed I can speak to them again, haha... see if they still would like me onboard... ah well.
🦎 ᴘʀᴏᴘᴀɢᴀɴᴅᴀ
2020-10-30T02:21:50.000Z
they have liked the work you've done :-( it might be possible
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