what a crazy day it’s been... but good. it’ll all be a million billion percent worth even the most ridiculous trouble if it means my friend can be safe. to this day this community at times astounds me... there are many, many kind people here

I don’t have much to update regarding myself! am taking that new bone density med, gonna find out early next week what our new options for surgery are given my bones are apparently made of tissue paper... I swear I never know what the future is going to look like even with each passing day

And I don’t mean some nebulous future, I mean like the next couple weeks it SUCKS getting jerked around so much and getting answers that constantly lead to more questions, it feels like it never ends! how many more times can we kick this can down the freaking road???

huff puff huff puff 😤

It’s been ridiculous and sometimes it really gets to me but all I can do is try to keep my chin up and keep believing in what feels more and more like an impossibility or a fairy tale, haha

we’ll get there...

we’ve gone from definitely moving out of Cali to definitely staying in Cali to DEFINITELY moving out or Cali and I expect that to change six more times in the next week

and of course, my own feelings keep going back and forth on fuck LA I’m outta here to wow I really don’t want to leave LA to man I want out of this goddamn apartment to baw I really want to stay in this beautiful complex

feelings are fake, and not real,

but that’s really the sum total of things rn. not much else to report!

I hope all of you are well! keep staying safe everyone. (I get my first dose of the vaccine tomorrow, wooooooo!!!)

ugh, I will say though that the pain is getting extremely bad again... I’m so uncomfortable hopefully soon we can do a pain management epidural again and take the edge off

ugh that sounds so complicated

I'm glad there's some movement and hope it's positive

<3

and it's amazing you were able to help your friend! Serendipity sometimes