Still generally on my bullshit.

Still generally trying to get back into RP and only having very mixed success.

Still planning on continuing to try!

Honestly, for a while I really feel like I just needed a break and it wasn't where my heart was? But now, I have really WANTED to play for like... multiple weeks now.

But I've been having REALLY bad brain fog and just like, really extended, low-key chronic illness stuff and issues sleeping and whatnot. Which has made ANY kind of creativity difficult.

I don't usually get brain fog very badly as a symptom of my chronic stuff-- typically the issue is more fatigue so strong I can't really sit up the extra time to play, if something is keeping me down, or needing to use all my spoons on staying gainfully employed and fed and clean and stuff.

So having the energy to do something but not being able to brain my way through properly using a toaster much less pretending to be someone else is new for me and I have to say that I DON'T MUCH LIKE IT, THANKS.

But overall, things are generally ok. I usually end up happier and more productive during the fall, so maybe that will happen this time as the weather gets cooler.

But anyway! I miss playing with everyone and talking more with people and hope you're all doing well!

I feel this so hard.

This is a common feeling these days, though. The constant grinding low level stress of existing during terminal capitalism has been added to with the pandemic and all the US politics shit and people are literally experiencing a kind of cognitive decline.

And quite often it manifests as severe brain fog, loss of word finding ability, all the really higher brain functions.

There have been studies. Because of course there have. What else have most people got to do? XD;

Yeah I definitely have felt a LOT of my mental and physical health just decline all over the place from having to be in the house all the time. And I LIKE BEING IN THE HOUSE.

Like, I am starting to like... I don't want to get covid but I am getting close to the point of like...

The risk of Covid versus the risk of me continuing to deteriorate because of being inside this long is starting to hit the balance where I'm like "fine cough on me but please let me go back to the office"

I am SO SCARED of getting covid or anyone around me getting covid. But what having to live my entire life in the same room, basically, is doing to me is starting to feel worse.

Aye, same here. Phrases like 'stir crazy' or 'cabin fever' just don't put across the extent of what this is doing to people.

And I do still try to get out and do things on the weekend and whatnot. I haven't been shy about going out and about after I got vaccinated-- I just mask and distance and try to avoid crowds when possible.

But it's the like... 9-5 weekday living out of the same room. I eat, play, sleep, work, everything in the same set of rooms all day, every day, and interact with the same people every day and I just want to scream.

(even though everyone I interact with on the reg is lovely)

yeah... i've been doing better recently because snow's parents moved near us and they are CONSTANTLY asking us over to dinner or on walks and stuff.

But yeah. "stir crazy" isn't enough to describe what I'm feeling.

and it's helped a surprising amount.

I'm hoping the weather getting cooler will help-- it's been too hot to go outside on a whim in MONTHS.

I have a nice backyard where I could at least get some fresh air and some controlled sunlight, but when it's 100 degrees every day, it's hard.

blech, yeah, that's too hot to exist.

oh yeah. like it's not near as hot here as where you are, but i'm so glad it's fall and cooling off.

same.

bonfire tiiiiiime. outside social distancing without being miseraaaaable.

Oh man-- we still have quite a ways to go before I would be comfortable at a bonfire, temperature-wise, but that would be lovely.

yeah we're regularly down in the 40-50s at night rn

40s is good sleeping weather, at least.

yeah it's been nice.

Open the window a bit, curl up under some blankets... ^.^

yeeees.

the dog is waiting eagerly for the day we turn on the fireplace