After getting that resolved, I could really tell there’s a change in mindset and everything. Before getting my closure, I was anxious all the time. Tried to talk to a lot of people, make friends, fill in all of my free time. I desperately wanted to find someone to fill in the gap. I wanted to find a replacement.

But now, I slowed down. I still want to fall in love, get into a new relationship. But I’m not in a rush. It’s kinda lonely sometimes... I miss falling in love, and having someone who connected with you deeply. Like you belong to each other and nothing else. I miss the feeling of pouring you heart and soul out to love someone.

But I know I can’t rush things. I learn my lessons

Sometimes I’d be afraid. Putting ridiculous thoughts in my head... will I stay single and alone for the rest of my life? Will my next partner lie to me and cheat on me? Will I repeat the same mistakes? Will I settle for less just because I was afraid of the social pressure, or the fear of end up being all by myself?

I believe you deserve what you deserve. So im gonna be happier and healthier. Learn new things, enrich myself and my life. So when the time comes, I can welcome my new relationship with my best self.