He was an accident

A surprise... but a good one... so far

But I’m scared of falling in love again. I can’t help myself thinking about how I failed in my last relationship. I ruined it. 6 years. Not a short period at all but I ruined it, and hurt someone I’d never mean to hurt

Its not difficult for me to trust the others. The hardest part is to trust myself. How can I believe that I’m not going to make the same mistake? How can I make sure I won’t ruin it after another 6 years?

He’s so sweet. And patient with me. He communicates with me, and honest. I pushed him away but he keeps coming back.

He reminds me of him... all the good feelings

It also sparks fear in me

I’m conflicted

But first and foremost is to build myself up. Need to be truly independent. Before I start my relationship with him.... or with anyone