ughgh feeling like no one wants anything to do with me, I know it's just the Brain Problems though, it doesn't help that after I posted a comic with contentious and taboo subject matter all communication just ceased
I know it's just coincidence and that everyone I know and care about doesn't actually give a fuck about that
I know it's just coincidence and that everyone I know and care about doesn't actually give a fuck about that
but putting it publicly left me kinda feeling exposed and raw, even if it's just a silly little story
its so stupid it's SO STUPID like this was just supposed to be a project for myself to enjoy and like, maybe I'd post it publicly but I don't have an audience, no one actually cares AND YET?? worrying about it is consuming my thoughts constantly
and like, the only reason I dont delete it is the nagging though of "what if someone out there finds it and enjoys it?"
this truly is the "Desire to be seen vs the horrifying ordeal of being known"
anyway I needed to vent, I'm glad I remembered I had a plurk where I could do so