Brain rejecting the idea of sleep for hours now

omigosh anne

i hope you get sleep

Eventually I will. But it might take hours for me to actually try. The anxiety of what I’ll experience in those dreams makes it hard to even try properly

has it been that bad? i'm so sorry

I'm afraid so. Most nights I don't want to sleep. Most of the time I go to sleep is because my brain is too exhausted to do stuff. There are some times where I can go to sleep before exhaustion hits but it's not that common. It's like a pattern.

I have a good week of sleeping regardless of what kind of dreams I have then bam! I have a particularly bad night and then I lose all will to sleep. It becomes torture to go to bed.

that's awful

Even when I do sleep, I don’t rest well due to said dreams so I’m hardly ever rested. That mixed with my depression and anxiety pills, means I’m usually tired all the time.

And that’s not even mentioning what all of this does to my mood.

i can at least relate to basically wanting to stay up until exhaustion makes it impossible to

gods i'm sorry though

nods at least at the moment I’m relatively cheerful. Tired but having fun. Talking to you and roleplay while I can are helping a lot.

^_^