so like, on the whole? A+ good times

everything sucks for a week but then I get to be a full human for two weeks and that's not a bad tradeoff

but oh man when I'm in the shit week it's like. "I am chemically incapable of experiencing joy and have sleepovers with all my sleep paralysis demons"

every anxiety I have ever experienced in my life is just like "oh yeah that's definitely a thing 100% for sure why are you even here you should go live in the mountains nobody will miss you"

do you ever get holidays or are you stuck on a 3 week cycle for eternity

and then it's like "don't detach from society until you feel good enough to at least have a cry about something" but then it's like "but I hate everyone now what do you MEAN I can't just burn every bridge right now"

skeletone: 3 week cycle until they decide I'm cancering too hard and need to swap meds again! and I do like this one overall so I would like to learn to live with it

I spent a lot of this morning just being like "all of dwrp? belongs in the garbage?? I think?" and it's just the waiting period while I figure out if that was a legitimate thought or if everything is going to be fine two days from now

it's like the feeling of "am I actually upset or is this pms" but at a different temperature

.......this is tragically way too relatable for reasons we have discussed, though obvs we are wrangling different causes for it. have you brought this up to see if the doctors have an idea why it's messing with you this way to see if there's anything to mitigate it?

koutavi: oh no this is by design there are loads of "uh this causes depression" warnings that come with the meds

that's a side effect not by design!! no one's ever looked into how to improve it?

but me, the intellectual, just over here like "THERE IS A PERIOD OF TIME THAT LACKS BRAIN FOG AND I WILL FIGHT TO THE DEATH TO ACCESS IT"

I know several people doing the same thing and one who takes like a month off every 3 months but that's probably... very individual, pity more people can't do that!

oh yeah there are a bunch of meds with different rhythms

if they've said there's no way to help i will let it be and just sympathize and send you more cute videos but... surely.... knowing why might mean there are options

lol no it's fine it's just the process

a well timed hormonal supplement or a certain type of psych med...

I think paclitaxel had the same effect on my dad but ... faster it was like a few hours. I hope it eases on you!

(Zoloft helped)

i hate that you are feeling this bad for a whole 1/3 of your existence tho

maybe dwrp should stop looking so nice in the dumpster but there's nothing that can be done about that

it's fine we've all contemplated detaching from all of society at one point or another right

......yes. often. but that is not ideal!!! or fine!

The "maybe I should just retreat into the bog and become the hermit bog witch" feeling is very real. But I would miss you

I mean at this point I think I am entirely replaceable from an objective standpoint

there are surprisingly few interactions that actually require me that could not be fulfilled by a medium-temperature alternative body

doesn't even have to be all that warm of a body

I WOULD LIKE TO RESPECTFULLY BUT PASSIONATELY DISAGREE

^^

I ALSO RESPECTFULLY DISAGREE

who else can i talk about idols with and not have to stop and explain terms

among other things

who else am i supposed to have an empanada-off with???

oh SORRY THAT WAS THE WRONG THING TO SAY RIGHT WHEN I STARTED DRIVING I didn't mean to be moody and silent in immediate succession

that does give off A Vibe

ma'am if i was not super aware that this is the tail end of your Bad Week i would be driving right now myself, to invade with treats.

it certainly is the Bad Wednesday

my only responsibility for the day is done i know where you live but yeah, i know your schedule this is still Bad Week obvs.

....i could have different treats delivered to you and then you would not have to endure actual human interaction but still get aggressive HOW DARE YOU SAY MY FRIEND IS REPLACEABLE? NICE THINGS FOR JESSIE PLZ! energy with a practical bonus.

aggressive sympathy hugs, im sorry friend i wish good weeks were longer

pms cupcake?? no you are baking an entire 5 tier fancy cake about it

with fondant

be careful tho this is a surefire way to end up with Surprise Treats

sits in the dumpster: ah yes my home

but ye also on the disagree train but more on the rail at the world in unfairness etc etc

ok but all of dwrp does belong in the garbage

I hope things improve on this med, though!

hope all is well, was just thinking of you and wondering where you'd been

oh hey, I'm not dead or anything! I had about 8000 Feelings that amounted to "no one would notice if I evaporated from this platform" and my absence was pretty inconsequential so there wasn't really a reason to drop back in.

basically "oh, things made me feel bad. dwrp, how do you look in the trash? oh, nothing bad happened when you went in the trash? does the trash notice it's got a dwrp in it? maybe it's ok with staying there."

jessie is not trash get out of there, ill fight people

You are not trash and I'll fight people too.

We love you Jessie!!! And you cannot escape, obvs, as I figured you were not feeling plurk and just pestered you on another platform like a menace...

i definitely noticed but i'm shyer than michelle!

You are not trash

kind words are appreciated, but I will note that it isn't myself that has been thrown in the trash that seems like an important semantic note

this community has done a lot of damage and I do not care to be hurt by it any longer.

not arguing that part, just the "no one would notice my absence is inconsequential" part.

you've also heard the unfiltered version of what I'm trying to say without saying

oh yeah that was my 9am reading comprehension at work. well!!! dwrp can stay in your trash bin if it's better for you there. I do hope you don't entirely disappear but whatever is best for your health is the most important.

i have! and i do not blame you one bit. but people who are not me ^^^ care for not rp purposes too and would rather you not evaporate entirely.

I have learned and continue to learn, it's important to not keep anything that does not at least bring you a little joy in your life. It's important when you are not battling something chronic but more so when you are and your moments for joy are not as much as someone elses might be.

That being said you're a brilliant and great person so if you do trash DWRP I hope you stick around for general BS and shenanigans. You would be missed dearly if you didn't.